28.9.11

Jungle World

The world out there (outside of my house) is like a wild jungle. Feroce animals (lions, cougars, panthers, monkeys, etc.) are all over the place and looking for their prey. In other words, you have to be extremely careful and beware of everything and everyone, because every single thing you do may come back and bite you.

No one can be trusted, not even your own self (tell a lie to yourself 10x and you'll start to believe it).

If you want to survive in this salvage/competitive world, you need to know how to protect yourself from those 'bestias.' You never know when it secretly wants you dead (figuratively speaking) for no particular reason or because you don't remember since when you stepped on its tale. Please beware that I'm not telling you to attack others and do them harms, I said 'protect yourself.'

So, you need to learn how to sharpen your weapons and be prepared to face those creatures whenever they come after you. The moment you identify an attack, you may know how to dodge the strike.

Now, you're on your own and I'm on mine...Good luck!!!

25.9.11

Affair


According to the society's education, we know that it is not ethic and wrong to betray our other half and do such thing, but when emotions are part of the game...the heart tend to win over the brain.

Anyway, as soon as we hear a person having an affair, we immediately think it's that person's fault. But, is it really? We don't know. It is hard to say unless you're part of the relation.

Human feelings are so mysterious. Don't under-estimate it.

PS. The mistake from the one who cheats is not having the courage to tell the other party what went wrong in their relation and what could be done to save it.

Note: This is just a random subject. I am not having an affair and can't, because I don't even have someone to cheat on. Moreover, I am more faithful than you can imagine (I was a dog in my previous life).

24.9.11

Women And Their Shoes

A lot of women are highly attached to their purses and shoes (mix and match depending on the occasion), but I'm not too crazy about bags, so I'll talk about shoes. XD

There are different kinds of shoes: closed or open-toe; with or without heels; etc. For a woman, choosing the right shoe to wear is the equivalent of choosing the right suit for a man. More importantly, it is a CRIME to wear the same pair of shoe as another woman in the same event...even if it's by pure coincidence.

Each category of shoe has its own meaning...lets see what I can come up with...


Pumps: They are just a perfect fit, no matter where you go. Look at them! So gorgeous! *smack* Your office space, press conferences and casual parties would love to have them as part of their time.

Stilettos: They are extremely fabulous for the eyes, but an absolute pain for the feet. *tears of pain* In my personal opinion, I woud wear them only if I know that I won't be walking for more than 10 minutes top.

 Clogs: They are more casual and comfortable to wear, but I never knew how to appreciate them. Sorry!

Sandals: Who could possibly not have a pair of sandals? It is a good friend of summertime.

Flip-flops: Same as sandals, but even more casual. Generally, I would take them to grocery shopping or to the beach.

Sneakers: I used to heart them with all my heart (still do), but I try not to wear them in a daily basis. I reserve their time only if I plan to do some sports or a lot of walking.

Boots: Ah! Seriously! Boots are my favorites. They can go anywhere...even more event-friendly than pumps. Do you realize how awesome they truly are? They can multi-task very well.

Conclusion: Heels are sexy and empowered. *heart* But, my love is dedicated to the Boots family.

Note: Oooops! Sounded a little ridiculous, because I talk about them like if they are my friends. *humiliated smile* Well~ They're better friends than a lot of hypocritical people, so why not.

22.9.11

Diary of Fear

Forenote: I originally wanted to write a 'Diary of Hate', but I promised to be more positive, so the subject had slightly been changed. 

Each person has his/her own fear (sensation of discomfort) towards certain things and/or situations. As a normal human being, I do have my own dreads.

Some of them are insignificant and could be "tolerable" (Nah! Not really, but can be managable with greater efforts):
- Creepy-crawlers.
- Height.
- Homo sapiens.
- Dirtyness.
- etc.

The rest of them might require an even bigger courage to overcome:
- The idea of death...not knowing what will happen to you after that moment (Reincarnation? Heaven? Hell? Nothing at all?). It is like if you have lived all those years for nothing. Nobody will remember of your existence.
- The future. A person's faith has nothing to do with whether the person is good or bad. I start to believe that there's no such thing as karma. With years of observation, I have come to the conclusion that life is unfair. Good people don't always get a good ending and bad people don't always get punished. Anyway, I will continue to do what I have to do, just in case my time hasn't arrived yet. At some point, I also believe that someone is watching us up-there. Sigh! I'm all confused. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I can't even be clear on what I truly believe.
- Afraid of my own body structure (anatomy). Yes! Brilliant! I should grab this opportunity to analyze myself. (see section below)
- To lose. I don't like losing against others and certainly not failing myself...need to get everything done the way it's planned. I may not look like I care, but it highly disturbs me when people compare me with my sister and say how she's better. The worst is...I don't need you to tell me, because I already know.
- etc.
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Last minute addition. It is a little off subject, but I want to use this moment to think about what I'm not satisfied with my own body.

Self criticism: shoulders too broad, waist too large, tibias too short, fingers too similar to elephant legs, eyes too small and simple eyelid, buttocks too big, breast too small, neck too short, face too wide and square, jawbone too pronounced, forehead too short, hair too thick and hard, skin too dry, etc. Jeeeez!!! This list can go on for ever. It's definitely a big project whenever I decide to renovate myself. LOL You might think I'm being harsh with myself and exaggerating, but I see it as being honest.

A person can only improve if he/she knows his/her own weakness, right?

21.9.11

Prepare To LOL (Part V)

- Can you imagine someone who wants to file a claim because her meat perished in her out-of-electricity fridge?

- How ridiculous to call us because the pump of the bottle of cream he bought is not working. What do you want us to do? Isn't it just logic to bring it back to the store and get another bottle?

- Can you believe a grown-up can't count to 8?

- Some don't know their provinces. You ask them with the insurance company of which province...they will answer in a mocking tone "Bah! Montreal." or "What do you mean? Toronto."

對人歡笑,背人垂淚

Everyone thinks I'm a happy person because I always smile in front of people. But, no one will ever know the other me when I'm all alone in my bed. During the night, when people sleep, I am awake thinking about so much things that I have difficulties entering in deep sleep. Other times I worry about things which will make me get horrible dreams. These days, I continuously see those 2 women (keep this anonymous before other troubles come after me) and hear their voices in my NIGHTMARES. The same scene keeps poping up. I'm so tired and want to move on, but in my subconscious it is bothering me big time. They are literaly haunting my soul. Anyhow, I'm just not the kind of person who will go and tell my problems to everyone...I prefer to keep it to myself.

而家先唎做三失中女,你話死唔死?!? 不過我唔會吟容易比佢一嘢就打沉嘅!

Note: A friend of mine criticized me for my own good and it's 100% true what he said. He pointed out how most of the time I'm being negative and always complaining...while I should be more positive, then maybe I will have more friends. Thus, from now on, I decide to make a great effort to change that bad habit and think positively in each and every situation.

20.9.11

Prepare To LOL (Part IV)

- OMG! Received a call from an intolerable woman who needed medical assistance. She literally refused to pay for anything whatsoever, because she already paid her part (the insurance) and now it is our responsability to deal with the rest. WOW! I'm not saying that you are not covered, but just have to pay in advanced and submit the fees to the claims for a reimbursement. What can I possibly do if the company I'm working for doesn't have any deal with local hospitals (meaning we can't arrange billing for no one)? That woman made me search and called several hospitals for nothing, it comes to the same conslusion I told her at the beginning...not because I'm useless, but those are the rules. So, if you don't know how it works, shut your big mouth and follow the instructions as you are told...and STOP SAYING THAT I'M INCOMPETENT.

- A woman in Paros requested us to immediately transport her to a specific hospital in Athen for better care. Euh...the problem is the fact that she doesn't even know the name oe address or phone number of the hospital (nor her group leader or friends), but is disappointed on us for not being able to communicate with the hospital instead of relying on her to get the info.

- He is the one insured with us, but he calls to say that his father is dying from Accident vasculaire cérébral (ACV). Bah! Does it make any sense to you? The father is obviously not covered. It took me a big fat minute to figure out that his father is dying in Canada and he needs to interrupt his trip to get back to Canada and be at his father's bedside.
1-We can't repatriate him, because he's not injured.
2-Why use a calling card, speaks incredibly fast and be impolite?
3-We don't pay return tickets in advanced, so no can help if you don't have a MC.
That moron also told me how people there don't speak french nor english very well, but when he asked for a pen to write down the reference number, he said: "do you have a *with a french pronunciation* stylo and a piece of paper".

- McGill student? TSK. They already have a coverage with limited benefits + he didn't renew his contract. What do you think my answer to him was?

- A man asked if we can authorize a syphilis test recommanded by one of his partnerS doctor. Hmmm! The point of insurance is to cover urgent cares...this preventive test is clearly not an emergency.

- What's the rush? Why can't people just let me finish what I have to say? Maybe the answer you are looking for is in the 2nd part of my sentence. Sigh!

19.9.11

Prepare To LOL (Part III)

- A young couple going to Mexico for vacations. You must think 'wow, lucky them!' Uh uh! Not too fast. The moment the girl got on the plane, she started to suffer from anxiety, but she decided to endure 4 hours of flight in that piece-of-giant-flying-metal. Once, they got to their destination, she fled to a medical clinic and wanted to get back immediately. Obviously, my job is to assist those travelers, so I had to do my best to get her back as soon as possible. But, my question was...how is she going to get back? Again, by plane? Will she be able to tough it up? *exhales* Poor the boyfriend who had to come back with her and missed a wonderful chance on a great vacation.

- When someone calls their insurance to file a claim, you must think of a reimbursement of at least 3-4 digits worth. I, here tell you that you are terribly wrong. There was a woman who called from Kunming, because she had to consult a doctor for her hair loss problem due to the change of atmosphere/climate. Therefore, I opened a file with her and did a follow-up to see if she's doing better. At the end, I asked how much the consultation cost, so I could put the information in. *mocking laugh* Her answer to me was..."Not much. According to the currency, it might come to 2$CAD." Seriously? Who would go through a stack of forms to claim 2$CAD? This is more than ridiculous.

- A man speaking with a heavy accent called to report how sick his child is. As a good and responsible employee, I followed the procedures and respected all protocols by asking him important questions in order to be able to help him adequately.  The man was highly impatient and yelled at me, saying that I have no right to ask those questions and investigate on him. WOW! Did you enter the country illegally? Jeeez! At some point, he also said how I don't understand their situation, because his son is dying and I'm comfortably sitting (which is not true at all) in an office with AC. Hmmm!!! If I remember correctly, he said at the beginning of the conversation that his son's being sick for a week already. Can you blame me if you didn't care sooner? Oh! Even better. That man, was telling me what to do...gave me orders. He commanded me to look for a specialist up on the internet and give him the address. Yes! A specialist, because he refused to take his son to a hospital and have those "unexperienced interns see him."

- *laughing my lungs out* This one is a special one. I thought it was a blonde joke, but it is 100% true. A pregnant woman asked in a trembling panic voice..."if I'm pregnant and had sex with my boyfriend, will my foetus-baby-girl get pregnant too?"

- The girl's last stop is in Burlington and is suppose to come back to Montreal by bus. With a little bad luck and a lot of stupidity...her luggage was delayed and instead of seeking for a solution, she decided to get back anyway. To be able to help her, I asked for a description of the article, but instead of answering the question coherently, she chose to make fun of me. She told me she had a bottle of alcohol in there, then turned to her friend and laughed with the idea of us buying her a new bottle. How immature?!? If you had the intelligence to understand the question, I asked for a description, not what is in the bag. Pfff!!! For my revenge (which is what we truly need anyway), I told her that we'd need a written report by a competent authority (a policeman, in her case) to prove the truth of the situation. Sorry my dear smart-ass, guess you'll have to get back to Burlington or no reimbursement.

18.9.11

Glass Half...

...full or empty is your perception.


People tend to push themselves to say 'full' because they want to show others how optimistic they are...show a healthy image. These people say things like: "You need to look on things positively and appreciate everything you have because there are people who don't even have half of what you have. Think of those kids who are starving in the 3rd world or those men who got dismembered during a war or the ones who don't have a shelter, etc."

Well~ Seriously! I consider myself in the middle class, which means there are equally a lot of people who are wealthier and better looking than myself. Why can I not feel inferior if it is the truth? Is it wrong to accept the reality as it is? Or it is better to deny the truth and lie upon yourself and say things are always going to work out?

My very own conclusion: Whether the glass is half full or half empty, the situation remains the same unless you are able to add more water to your glass.

FYI: If I say 'half empty,' doesn't mean I'm negative, but only because half is not enough and I expect more.

16.9.11

Prepare To LOL

...in sad cold tears.

Question: What do you do when you are very sad/depressed? Shopping? Yell at someone? Walk on the street not knowing where to go? Eat? Watch a movie? Sleep? Pfff!!! Normally, I would clean the house, but this time I choose to get my pillow wet.

--> Today is officially the most HU-MI-LIA-TING day of my entire life up until now. Please, don't ask. I want to save some pride out of this sudden/unexpected/un-planned/difficult/shocking situation, which leaves me hanging in the air and not knowing what to do next, because there were no place for a 2nd chance.

Realization: The earth continues to turn even if you're hurt, right? So, I will allow myself 10 more minutes of insanity and then I have to bring myself together and move on. I know I can get through this. I can. If I think I can, I can. Yes, I can.

(I will forever remember the words they said, the look on their face and what they did) I, HERE, SWEAR AND PROMISE MYSELF THAT THIS IS THE FIRST BUT ALSO THE LAST TIME I GET TREAT LIKE THIS. IT WON'T HAPPEN TO ME EVER AGAIN!!!

15.9.11

Prepare To LOL (Part II)

- A worried mother reports her son to have fallen out of the car, because he didn't properly lock the door.

- A couple was watching a scary movie together. The girl snucked up on her boyfriend and grabbed him out of fear. But, I guess the boyfriend had more fear than her...he lashed out and struck her directly in the nose. Uh! Oh! Broken nose for watching a scary movie. I wonder which movie they were watching.

- A woman brings her McMurdo to camping, when needed, she can use it to fire a signal to the Canadien Army and they'll come to her rescue based on her GPS signal. How exaggerated, but keuwl is that?!?

- A man came back from his trip, landed in New York City to pick up his car and drive back to Montreal. Unfortunately, the parking lot in New York, where he left his car was completely flooded, so his car is totally useless. Bah~ What am I suppose to do? What can I say? He was already back from his trip, he wasn't injured, and it wasn't a rented car. If he has a minimal degree of intelligence, he would know that the person he needed to call was his own car insurance and not waste my time on complaining on something which is not even valid.

- A woman (a chinese one) still in Texas with her daughter having an ear infection. I wasn't the one who opened the file with her, but she called to tell me she found 2 returning flight tickets, but they are in the first class. I answered that we generally cover economic class tickets and if she needs assistance, I am more than happy to help. I don't know if she didn't hear or didn't understand or chose to ignore me, but she drastically changed subject and asked what her benefits are (hospitality, meals and car rentals). Okay. I kept my cool and politely tell her that I have to contact the insurance company in question in order to confirm the information, because we are not THAT company, but a company mandated by it. Moreover, we are still waiting for her daughter's medical report. Then, she lost her patience, started to yell at me (with her half understandable english), said that I'm not nice to her, that not trying to help her and hung up without giving me the chance to explain further.

13.9.11

Suit Up, Boyz!

To my eyes, no matter how ugly and shrimped-up (body posture) a man is, he will have a better looking (doesn't make you the hottest man on earth, but will definitely embellish your look in general) if he wears a suit...a well-cut and to his size suit. This rule may be applied on anyone, no discrimination.

As Barney Stinson (Neil Patrick Harris' character in How I Met Your Mother) says "Suits are full of joy. They're the sartorial equivalent of a baby's smile."


Conclusion: A suit is like a magic outerwear which can enhance one's physical appearance.

Note: I give extra points to an all black suit (with a silky lapel) and an all black shirt, matching with a sexy red tie. An even greater preference if it's from Burberry, Giorgio Armani or Hugo Boss.

11.9.11

911 Begins

I dedicate this post to my twin (not my biological one, but the one who lives in my mirror). Who she is? Read on and you'll see.

The other me is the one who adores to talk about movies and dramas and celebrities. As some of you may already had a glance...I created a new blog (http://www.couchcriticduo.blogspot.com/) to talk about cinema stuffs.

Today is the official grand opening. So sad there ain't virtual red carpet walking. I'd love to put on a nice dress. -_-"

Note: Duo means me and my partner HSK, who is also a crew member/writer. Can't wait for her to start writing.

9.9.11

Ex-cuuuuse me!?!

It is absolutely correct to start a conversation by asking how the other person is doing. BUT, it is utterly rude and impolite not to wait for the answer and start talking about yourself. It gives the impression that you don't care and just want it all to be about you. Then, why do you even bother to ask?

I like to listend and I know I'm a good listener, but I sometimes need to express myself too. There are certain things I would like to share/get them out of my heart and brain. I want someone to care about me. Sigh! As I always say, things can't always go the way we desire. Unfortunately, no one seems to be interested in filling that position, I will continue to share my thoughts with my blog/my virtual personal space.

(I'm aware that there are people out there dying of curiousity to know what is going on with me...to gossip, but I'm not to satisfy their dirty wish.)

6.9.11

Today Is Your Day


This is Shania's new song. Amazing, isn't it?

I am so inspired by this song. I have the feeling that her concert in Las Vegas will be a huge success. So happy to see her back in a strong way, still looking good as old times and her voice reaching your soul. *in Heaven*

PS. She wrote the song herself.

Cannot Share

Just thought about something. Remember how I said I am going to share every little detail with the one I love? No secrets in the relation? Well, there is ONE thing I cannot share...the image of myself sitting on a toilet bowl. OFL

4.9.11

Prepare To LOL (Part I)

"Prepare To LOL" is a serie of compilation of non-sense people I encounter/hear at work. At my previous job, I thought all idiots went into the realestate business, but they actually are everywhere...places where sunlight could or couldn't touch (no difference, not like in Lion King).

Note: If you have done something similar to those people, please don't feel targeted, it's only pure coincidence. Don't be too serious...read them as if they are short stories written for kidz of a certain age.

- There are parents who must not love their children and want them to be humiliated for the rest of their life. Seriously, who would name their newborn Star or Noel with their birthdate on December 25th? I am so thankful my mother is not that cruel.

- A woman was crying on the phone, demonstrated that she's in a lot of pain, told me she couldn't stop the bleeding and begged me to help her. A normal person would think it's something very serious which needs immediate care. At that time, I wondered why she didn't call an ambulance, but call her insurance company. My reflex was to refer her to the closest hospital instead of asking a bunch of questions and let her bleed to death. Pfff!!! The truth is...she was in her period, put a tampon in and couldn't remove it.

- A girl is living in the States to study. One night, she grabbed a cab to get back to her apartment, but the moment she was heading to the front door, she suspected that the taxi driver's following her. What will you do in a situation like this one? That lady couldn't find her keys in her bag and decided to use her hand to break the front door's window hoping to do enough noise to wake her neighbors. Yes. With her bare hand. At the end, she ran to the other side of the street and got help from people who were sitting in their porch. Jeeez!!! Why didn't you do that in the 1st place?

- An old man and his friend had no other activities more interesting than going to a cemetary. Don't ask me what they planned on doing there, I didn't want to know. The only thing I found out and am able to tell you is how the accident happened. Upon their arrival, they found a spot and parked the car in the assigned area. Once it's all set, they got out respectively on their side of the car. The moment they stepped out of the car, it started to fell back. One of the old men got hit severely on his left leg and the olther one got dragged by the car. Both of them are now in the hospital. Isn't it creepy?

 - A nurse called us to verify coverage and benefits on a patient...nothing unusual. I took a look in the file and informed her that we're still waiting for the member's insurance company to validate the information. The nurse's automatic reply was: "okay, I'm going to cancel his appointment then." Euh...why would you cancel his appointment? If he has one, it's because he needs it, no? That stubborn-heartless nurse wouldn't make any exceptions. I had to tell her that in the worst case scenario, the patient can pay for the visit and get reimbursed, but she has the duty to treat her patients. I really don't understand how she could be a nurse and "take care" of people.

- A woman with a heavy chinese accent called to report her husband being hospitalized in China. I asked her basic questions, like how did he got injured, what is the diagnosis, and in which hospital is he. She disn't know anything about her husband's situation. I mean, when you pick up the phone and call your insurance company, what do expect we ask? Why can't you prepare yourself before calling instead of wasting your time and my time? Finally, she told me her husband is suffering of something beside the liver. WOW! There are lots of organs around the liver, can you be more specific? After a moment, she told me she knows what it is in chinese (mandarin), but not in english. The word is 膽囊. 0_0 Huh! Is it the pancreas? Well, I had to google it to know that 膽囊=gall bladder. At least I got the diagnosis even if I didn't get the rest.