The world out there (outside of my house) is like a wild jungle. Feroce animals (lions, cougars, panthers, monkeys, etc.) are all over the place and looking for their prey. In other words, you have to be extremely careful and beware of everything and everyone, because every single thing you do may come back and bite you.
No one can be trusted, not even your own self (tell a lie to yourself 10x and you'll start to believe it).
If you want to survive in this salvage/competitive world, you need to know how to protect yourself from those 'bestias.' You never know when it secretly wants you dead (figuratively speaking) for no particular reason or because you don't remember since when you stepped on its tale. Please beware that I'm not telling you to attack others and do them harms, I said 'protect yourself.'
So, you need to learn how to sharpen your weapons and be prepared to face those creatures whenever they come after you. The moment you identify an attack, you may know how to dodge the strike.
Now, you're on your own and I'm on mine...Good luck!!!
28.9.11
25.9.11
Affair
According to the society's education, we know that it is not ethic and wrong to betray our other half and do such thing, but when emotions are part of the game...the heart tend to win over the brain.
Anyway, as soon as we hear a person having an affair, we immediately think it's that person's fault. But, is it really? We don't know. It is hard to say unless you're part of the relation.
Human feelings are so mysterious. Don't under-estimate it.
PS. The mistake from the one who cheats is not having the courage to tell the other party what went wrong in their relation and what could be done to save it.
Note: This is just a random subject. I am not having an affair and can't, because I don't even have someone to cheat on. Moreover, I am more faithful than you can imagine (I was a dog in my previous life).
24.9.11
Women And Their Shoes
A lot of women are highly attached to their purses and shoes (mix and match depending on the occasion), but I'm not too crazy about bags, so I'll talk about shoes. XD
There are different kinds of shoes: closed or open-toe; with or without heels; etc. For a woman, choosing the right shoe to wear is the equivalent of choosing the right suit for a man. More importantly, it is a CRIME to wear the same pair of shoe as another woman in the same event...even if it's by pure coincidence.
Each category of shoe has its own meaning...lets see what I can come up with...
Pumps: They are just a perfect fit, no matter where you go. Look at them! So gorgeous! *smack* Your office space, press conferences and casual parties would love to have them as part of their time.
Stilettos: They are extremely fabulous for the eyes, but an absolute pain for the feet. *tears of pain* In my personal opinion, I woud wear them only if I know that I won't be walking for more than 10 minutes top.
Clogs: They are more casual and comfortable to wear, but I never knew how to appreciate them. Sorry!
Sandals: Who could possibly not have a pair of sandals? It is a good friend of summertime.
Flip-flops: Same as sandals, but even more casual. Generally, I would take them to grocery shopping or to the beach.
Sneakers: I used to heart them with all my heart (still do), but I try not to wear them in a daily basis. I reserve their time only if I plan to do some sports or a lot of walking.
Boots: Ah! Seriously! Boots are my favorites. They can go anywhere...even more event-friendly than pumps. Do you realize how awesome they truly are? They can multi-task very well.
Conclusion: Heels are sexy and empowered. *heart* But, my love is dedicated to the Boots family.
Note: Oooops! Sounded a little ridiculous, because I talk about them like if they are my friends. *humiliated smile* Well~ They're better friends than a lot of hypocritical people, so why not.
There are different kinds of shoes: closed or open-toe; with or without heels; etc. For a woman, choosing the right shoe to wear is the equivalent of choosing the right suit for a man. More importantly, it is a CRIME to wear the same pair of shoe as another woman in the same event...even if it's by pure coincidence.
Each category of shoe has its own meaning...lets see what I can come up with...
Conclusion: Heels are sexy and empowered. *heart* But, my love is dedicated to the Boots family.
Note: Oooops! Sounded a little ridiculous, because I talk about them like if they are my friends. *humiliated smile* Well~ They're better friends than a lot of hypocritical people, so why not.
22.9.11
Diary of Fear
Forenote: I originally wanted to write a 'Diary of Hate', but I promised to be more positive, so the subject had slightly been changed.
Each person has his/her own fear (sensation of discomfort) towards certain things and/or situations. As a normal human being, I do have my own dreads.
Some of them are insignificant and could be "tolerable" (Nah! Not really, but can be managable with greater efforts):
- Creepy-crawlers.
- Height.
- Homo sapiens.
- Dirtyness.
- etc.
The rest of them might require an even bigger courage to overcome:
- The idea of death...not knowing what will happen to you after that moment (Reincarnation? Heaven? Hell? Nothing at all?). It is like if you have lived all those years for nothing. Nobody will remember of your existence.
- The future. A person's faith has nothing to do with whether the person is good or bad. I start to believe that there's no such thing as karma. With years of observation, I have come to the conclusion that life is unfair. Good people don't always get a good ending and bad people don't always get punished. Anyway, I will continue to do what I have to do, just in case my time hasn't arrived yet. At some point, I also believe that someone is watching us up-there. Sigh! I'm all confused. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I can't even be clear on what I truly believe.
- Afraid of my own body structure (anatomy). Yes! Brilliant! I should grab this opportunity to analyze myself. (see section below)
- To lose. I don't like losing against others and certainly not failing myself...need to get everything done the way it's planned. I may not look like I care, but it highly disturbs me when people compare me with my sister and say how she's better. The worst is...I don't need you to tell me, because I already know.
- etc.
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Last minute addition. It is a little off subject, but I want to use this moment to think about what I'm not satisfied with my own body.
Self criticism: shoulders too broad, waist too large, tibias too short, fingers too similar to elephant legs, eyes too small and simple eyelid, buttocks too big, breast too small, neck too short, face too wide and square, jawbone too pronounced, forehead too short, hair too thick and hard, skin too dry, etc. Jeeeez!!! This list can go on for ever. It's definitely a big project whenever I decide to renovate myself. LOL You might think I'm being harsh with myself and exaggerating, but I see it as being honest.
A person can only improve if he/she knows his/her own weakness, right?
Each person has his/her own fear (sensation of discomfort) towards certain things and/or situations. As a normal human being, I do have my own dreads.
Some of them are insignificant and could be "tolerable" (Nah! Not really, but can be managable with greater efforts):
- Creepy-crawlers.
- Height.
- Homo sapiens.
- Dirtyness.
- etc.
The rest of them might require an even bigger courage to overcome:
- The idea of death...not knowing what will happen to you after that moment (Reincarnation? Heaven? Hell? Nothing at all?). It is like if you have lived all those years for nothing. Nobody will remember of your existence.
- The future. A person's faith has nothing to do with whether the person is good or bad. I start to believe that there's no such thing as karma. With years of observation, I have come to the conclusion that life is unfair. Good people don't always get a good ending and bad people don't always get punished. Anyway, I will continue to do what I have to do, just in case my time hasn't arrived yet. At some point, I also believe that someone is watching us up-there. Sigh! I'm all confused. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I can't even be clear on what I truly believe.
- Afraid of my own body structure (anatomy). Yes! Brilliant! I should grab this opportunity to analyze myself. (see section below)
- To lose. I don't like losing against others and certainly not failing myself...need to get everything done the way it's planned. I may not look like I care, but it highly disturbs me when people compare me with my sister and say how she's better. The worst is...I don't need you to tell me, because I already know.
- etc.
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Last minute addition. It is a little off subject, but I want to use this moment to think about what I'm not satisfied with my own body.
Self criticism: shoulders too broad, waist too large, tibias too short, fingers too similar to elephant legs, eyes too small and simple eyelid, buttocks too big, breast too small, neck too short, face too wide and square, jawbone too pronounced, forehead too short, hair too thick and hard, skin too dry, etc. Jeeeez!!! This list can go on for ever. It's definitely a big project whenever I decide to renovate myself. LOL You might think I'm being harsh with myself and exaggerating, but I see it as being honest.
A person can only improve if he/she knows his/her own weakness, right?
21.9.11
Prepare To LOL (Part V)
- Can you imagine someone who wants to file a claim because her meat perished in her out-of-electricity fridge?
- How ridiculous to call us because the pump of the bottle of cream he bought is not working. What do you want us to do? Isn't it just logic to bring it back to the store and get another bottle?
- Can you believe a grown-up can't count to 8?
- Some don't know their provinces. You ask them with the insurance company of which province...they will answer in a mocking tone "Bah! Montreal." or "What do you mean? Toronto."
- How ridiculous to call us because the pump of the bottle of cream he bought is not working. What do you want us to do? Isn't it just logic to bring it back to the store and get another bottle?
- Can you believe a grown-up can't count to 8?
- Some don't know their provinces. You ask them with the insurance company of which province...they will answer in a mocking tone "Bah! Montreal." or "What do you mean? Toronto."
對人歡笑，背人垂淚
Everyone thinks I'm a happy person because I always smile in front of people. But, no one will ever know the other me when I'm all alone in my bed. During the night, when people sleep, I am awake thinking about so much things that I have difficulties entering in deep sleep. Other times I worry about things which will make me get horrible dreams. These days, I continuously see those 2 women (keep this anonymous before other troubles come after me) and hear their voices in my NIGHTMARES. The same scene keeps poping up. I'm so tired and want to move on, but in my subconscious it is bothering me big time. They are literaly haunting my soul. Anyhow, I'm just not the kind of person who will go and tell my problems to everyone...I prefer to keep it to myself.
而家先唎做三失中女，你話死唔死?!? 不過我唔會吟容易比佢一嘢就打沉嘅!
Note: A friend of mine criticized me for my own good and it's 100% true what he said. He pointed out how most of the time I'm being negative and always complaining...while I should be more positive, then maybe I will have more friends. Thus, from now on, I decide to make a great effort to change that bad habit and think positively in each and every situation.
而家先唎做三失中女，你話死唔死?!? 不過我唔會吟容易比佢一嘢就打沉嘅!
Note: A friend of mine criticized me for my own good and it's 100% true what he said. He pointed out how most of the time I'm being negative and always complaining...while I should be more positive, then maybe I will have more friends. Thus, from now on, I decide to make a great effort to change that bad habit and think positively in each and every situation.
20.9.11
Prepare To LOL (Part IV)
- OMG! Received a call from an intolerable woman who needed medical assistance. She literally refused to pay for anything whatsoever, because she already paid her part (the insurance) and now it is our responsability to deal with the rest. WOW! I'm not saying that you are not covered, but just have to pay in advanced and submit the fees to the claims for a reimbursement. What can I possibly do if the company I'm working for doesn't have any deal with local hospitals (meaning we can't arrange billing for no one)? That woman made me search and called several hospitals for nothing, it comes to the same conslusion I told her at the beginning...not because I'm useless, but those are the rules. So, if you don't know how it works, shut your big mouth and follow the instructions as you are told...and STOP SAYING THAT I'M INCOMPETENT.
- A woman in Paros requested us to immediately transport her to a specific hospital in Athen for better care. Euh...the problem is the fact that she doesn't even know the name oe address or phone number of the hospital (nor her group leader or friends), but is disappointed on us for not being able to communicate with the hospital instead of relying on her to get the info.
- He is the one insured with us, but he calls to say that his father is dying from Accident vasculaire cérébral (ACV). Bah! Does it make any sense to you? The father is obviously not covered. It took me a big fat minute to figure out that his father is dying in Canada and he needs to interrupt his trip to get back to Canada and be at his father's bedside.
1-We can't repatriate him, because he's not injured.
2-Why use a calling card, speaks incredibly fast and be impolite?
3-We don't pay return tickets in advanced, so no can help if you don't have a MC.
That moron also told me how people there don't speak french nor english very well, but when he asked for a pen to write down the reference number, he said: "do you have a *with a french pronunciation* stylo and a piece of paper".
- McGill student? TSK. They already have a coverage with limited benefits + he didn't renew his contract. What do you think my answer to him was?
- A man asked if we can authorize a syphilis test recommanded by one of his partnerS doctor. Hmmm! The point of insurance is to cover urgent cares...this preventive test is clearly not an emergency.
- What's the rush? Why can't people just let me finish what I have to say? Maybe the answer you are looking for is in the 2nd part of my sentence. Sigh!
- A woman in Paros requested us to immediately transport her to a specific hospital in Athen for better care. Euh...the problem is the fact that she doesn't even know the name oe address or phone number of the hospital (nor her group leader or friends), but is disappointed on us for not being able to communicate with the hospital instead of relying on her to get the info.
- He is the one insured with us, but he calls to say that his father is dying from Accident vasculaire cérébral (ACV). Bah! Does it make any sense to you? The father is obviously not covered. It took me a big fat minute to figure out that his father is dying in Canada and he needs to interrupt his trip to get back to Canada and be at his father's bedside.
1-We can't repatriate him, because he's not injured.
2-Why use a calling card, speaks incredibly fast and be impolite?
3-We don't pay return tickets in advanced, so no can help if you don't have a MC.
That moron also told me how people there don't speak french nor english very well, but when he asked for a pen to write down the reference number, he said: "do you have a *with a french pronunciation* stylo and a piece of paper".
- McGill student? TSK. They already have a coverage with limited benefits + he didn't renew his contract. What do you think my answer to him was?
- A man asked if we can authorize a syphilis test recommanded by one of his partnerS doctor. Hmmm! The point of insurance is to cover urgent cares...this preventive test is clearly not an emergency.
- What's the rush? Why can't people just let me finish what I have to say? Maybe the answer you are looking for is in the 2nd part of my sentence. Sigh!
19.9.11
Prepare To LOL (Part III)
- A young couple going to Mexico for vacations. You must think 'wow, lucky them!' Uh uh! Not too fast. The moment the girl got on the plane, she started to suffer from anxiety, but she decided to endure 4 hours of flight in that piece-of-giant-flying-metal. Once, they got to their destination, she fled to a medical clinic and wanted to get back immediately. Obviously, my job is to assist those travelers, so I had to do my best to get her back as soon as possible. But, my question was...how is she going to get back? Again, by plane? Will she be able to tough it up? *exhales* Poor the boyfriend who had to come back with her and missed a wonderful chance on a great vacation.
- When someone calls their insurance to file a claim, you must think of a reimbursement of at least 3-4 digits worth. I, here tell you that you are terribly wrong. There was a woman who called from Kunming, because she had to consult a doctor for her hair loss problem due to the change of atmosphere/climate. Therefore, I opened a file with her and did a follow-up to see if she's doing better. At the end, I asked how much the consultation cost, so I could put the information in. *mocking laugh* Her answer to me was..."Not much. According to the currency, it might come to 2$CAD." Seriously? Who would go through a stack of forms to claim 2$CAD? This is more than ridiculous.
- A man speaking with a heavy accent called to report how sick his child is. As a good and responsible employee, I followed the procedures and respected all protocols by asking him important questions in order to be able to help him adequately. The man was highly impatient and yelled at me, saying that I have no right to ask those questions and investigate on him. WOW! Did you enter the country illegally? Jeeez! At some point, he also said how I don't understand their situation, because his son is dying and I'm comfortably sitting (which is not true at all) in an office with AC. Hmmm!!! If I remember correctly, he said at the beginning of the conversation that his son's being sick for a week already. Can you blame me if you didn't care sooner? Oh! Even better. That man, was telling me what to do...gave me orders. He commanded me to look for a specialist up on the internet and give him the address. Yes! A specialist, because he refused to take his son to a hospital and have those "unexperienced interns see him."
- *laughing my lungs out* This one is a special one. I thought it was a blonde joke, but it is 100% true. A pregnant woman asked in a trembling panic voice..."if I'm pregnant and had sex with my boyfriend, will my foetus-baby-girl get pregnant too?"
- The girl's last stop is in Burlington and is suppose to come back to Montreal by bus. With a little bad luck and a lot of stupidity...her luggage was delayed and instead of seeking for a solution, she decided to get back anyway. To be able to help her, I asked for a description of the article, but instead of answering the question coherently, she chose to make fun of me. She told me she had a bottle of alcohol in there, then turned to her friend and laughed with the idea of us buying her a new bottle. How immature?!? If you had the intelligence to understand the question, I asked for a description, not what is in the bag. Pfff!!! For my revenge (which is what we truly need anyway), I told her that we'd need a written report by a competent authority (a policeman, in her case) to prove the truth of the situation. Sorry my dear smart-ass, guess you'll have to get back to Burlington or no reimbursement.
- When someone calls their insurance to file a claim, you must think of a reimbursement of at least 3-4 digits worth. I, here tell you that you are terribly wrong. There was a woman who called from Kunming, because she had to consult a doctor for her hair loss problem due to the change of atmosphere/climate. Therefore, I opened a file with her and did a follow-up to see if she's doing better. At the end, I asked how much the consultation cost, so I could put the information in. *mocking laugh* Her answer to me was..."Not much. According to the currency, it might come to 2$CAD." Seriously? Who would go through a stack of forms to claim 2$CAD? This is more than ridiculous.
- A man speaking with a heavy accent called to report how sick his child is. As a good and responsible employee, I followed the procedures and respected all protocols by asking him important questions in order to be able to help him adequately. The man was highly impatient and yelled at me, saying that I have no right to ask those questions and investigate on him. WOW! Did you enter the country illegally? Jeeez! At some point, he also said how I don't understand their situation, because his son is dying and I'm comfortably sitting (which is not true at all) in an office with AC. Hmmm!!! If I remember correctly, he said at the beginning of the conversation that his son's being sick for a week already. Can you blame me if you didn't care sooner? Oh! Even better. That man, was telling me what to do...gave me orders. He commanded me to look for a specialist up on the internet and give him the address. Yes! A specialist, because he refused to take his son to a hospital and have those "unexperienced interns see him."
- *laughing my lungs out* This one is a special one. I thought it was a blonde joke, but it is 100% true. A pregnant woman asked in a trembling panic voice..."if I'm pregnant and had sex with my boyfriend, will my foetus-baby-girl get pregnant too?"
- The girl's last stop is in Burlington and is suppose to come back to Montreal by bus. With a little bad luck and a lot of stupidity...her luggage was delayed and instead of seeking for a solution, she decided to get back anyway. To be able to help her, I asked for a description of the article, but instead of answering the question coherently, she chose to make fun of me. She told me she had a bottle of alcohol in there, then turned to her friend and laughed with the idea of us buying her a new bottle. How immature?!? If you had the intelligence to understand the question, I asked for a description, not what is in the bag. Pfff!!! For my revenge (which is what we truly need anyway), I told her that we'd need a written report by a competent authority (a policeman, in her case) to prove the truth of the situation. Sorry my dear smart-ass, guess you'll have to get back to Burlington or no reimbursement.
18.9.11
Glass Half...
...full or empty is your perception.
People tend to push themselves to say 'full' because they want to show others how optimistic they are...show a healthy image. These people say things like: "You need to look on things positively and appreciate everything you have because there are people who don't even have half of what you have. Think of those kids who are starving in the 3rd world or those men who got dismembered during a war or the ones who don't have a shelter, etc."
Well~ Seriously! I consider myself in the middle class, which means there are equally a lot of people who are wealthier and better looking than myself. Why can I not feel inferior if it is the truth? Is it wrong to accept the reality as it is? Or it is better to deny the truth and lie upon yourself and say things are always going to work out?
My very own conclusion: Whether the glass is half full or half empty, the situation remains the same unless you are able to add more water to your glass.
FYI: If I say 'half empty,' doesn't mean I'm negative, but only because half is not enough and I expect more.
People tend to push themselves to say 'full' because they want to show others how optimistic they are...show a healthy image. These people say things like: "You need to look on things positively and appreciate everything you have because there are people who don't even have half of what you have. Think of those kids who are starving in the 3rd world or those men who got dismembered during a war or the ones who don't have a shelter, etc."
Well~ Seriously! I consider myself in the middle class, which means there are equally a lot of people who are wealthier and better looking than myself. Why can I not feel inferior if it is the truth? Is it wrong to accept the reality as it is? Or it is better to deny the truth and lie upon yourself and say things are always going to work out?
My very own conclusion: Whether the glass is half full or half empty, the situation remains the same unless you are able to add more water to your glass.
FYI: If I say 'half empty,' doesn't mean I'm negative, but only because half is not enough and I expect more.
16.9.11
Prepare To LOL
...in sad cold tears.
Question: What do you do when you are very sad/depressed? Shopping? Yell at someone? Walk on the street not knowing where to go? Eat? Watch a movie? Sleep? Pfff!!! Normally, I would clean the house, but this time I choose to get my pillow wet.
--> Today is officially the most HU-MI-LIA-TING day of my entire life up until now. Please, don't ask. I want to save some pride out of this sudden/unexpected/un-planned/difficult/shocking situation, which leaves me hanging in the air and not knowing what to do next, because there were no place for a 2nd chance.
Realization: The earth continues to turn even if you're hurt, right? So, I will allow myself 10 more minutes of insanity and then I have to bring myself together and move on. I know I can get through this. I can. If I think I can, I can. Yes, I can.
(I will forever remember the words they said, the look on their face and what they did) I, HERE, SWEAR AND PROMISE MYSELF THAT THIS IS THE FIRST BUT ALSO THE LAST TIME I GET TREAT LIKE THIS. IT WON'T HAPPEN TO ME EVER AGAIN!!!
Question: What do you do when you are very sad/depressed? Shopping? Yell at someone? Walk on the street not knowing where to go? Eat? Watch a movie? Sleep? Pfff!!! Normally, I would clean the house, but this time I choose to get my pillow wet.
--> Today is officially the most HU-MI-LIA-TING day of my entire life up until now. Please, don't ask. I want to save some pride out of this sudden/unexpected/un-planned/difficult/shocking situation, which leaves me hanging in the air and not knowing what to do next, because there were no place for a 2nd chance.
Realization: The earth continues to turn even if you're hurt, right? So, I will allow myself 10 more minutes of insanity and then I have to bring myself together and move on. I know I can get through this. I can. If I think I can, I can. Yes, I can.
(I will forever remember the words they said, the look on their face and what they did) I, HERE, SWEAR AND PROMISE MYSELF THAT THIS IS THE FIRST BUT ALSO THE LAST TIME I GET TREAT LIKE THIS. IT WON'T HAPPEN TO ME EVER AGAIN!!!
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