Fears & Worries

Fears and worries have their own definition. But at this very moment, I have to put merge them together...they go hand in hand.

Have this ever happened to you? To get a job, but worried not to be able to do it efficiently and not get along with people in the office? Right now, I have the feeling that I don't have anything thing in common with them...nothing...nada.

Also, I don't want to go home crying everyday, because surgeons won't be shy to give you shits if the OR schedule don't please them. I'm not paranoid or giving myself too much pression. It is true. I know that for a fact. I saw and heard with my very own eyes and ears. Worst...a surgeon once yelled at me for something not even in my tasks description. I can understand your frustration, but why can't you go see the person responsible instead of barking at the first person you see???

Anyway, I've also heard from others that the person who's in charge of the whole planning (the one who I am to replace whenever she goes on vacations) goes to the boss' office to cry. And my fear can also be justified by the last person (the one from who I'm taking over) changing position after only several months.

Ayayaaaah!!! Maybe I really should keep looking for another position.

One Step Closer

As I was complaining about my life going nowhere, I got a permanent position in the OR booking office. It might not be the job of my dream, but it'll serve at the mean time I keep looking for something better.

Starting today, at least, I have:
    - a stable schedule that won't get changed 5x a day and/or last minute.
    - a desk just for me. (time to bring in a picture frame, action figures, pens, hand cream, kleenex)
    - an extension if people want to reach me at work.
    - can bring a mug...with tea.
    - lots of snacks in my drawer.
    - a place to hang my coat and store my notes.

The only thing I'm missing/should ask for, is a better chair and a foot stool. I can never understand why people have to build such high desks...it is not short-people friendly.

Oh! There's another hitch, but I believe I can live with it. *crossing fingers* Afterall, I'm a better person with a high EQ, right?

Let this day be the day to start a wonderful career journey for me!!!

Mid-life Crisis

...or is it menopause slapping on my face?

If it's mid-life, then my life is not going to be very long is it?

Ayaaa!!!!

Comparing myself to other people of the same age, I've absolutely accomplished NOTHING. No career, no family, no car, no house, etc.

All I am is a lost soul floating in a Hospital...literally floating (my title is Administrative Agent/permanent float).

People around me try to cheer me up and keep me as positive as possible. They encourage me by saying how it is more convenient to live with my parents, so I can use the opportunity to save more money, and eventually move out; save more money and I travel while I can; it doesn't matter not to have a boyfriend, because I have them by my side; be patient and my chance will come at work.

Do you really think that I don't already know this? I try to convince myself to believe in these sayings and it is challenging. At the moment, all I truly want is a permanent and stable position with a better pay/something I deserve. I don't understand why companies put a higher emphasis on seniority than competence. In other words (if you have kids or planning to have kids), get their effing butt to work at the earliest age possible. A bachelor degree is not as valuable as it used to be. I'm the best example you can get. I keep applying for positions that I'm fully qualified (or even over-qualified), but no luck. I'm not even on their list of considerations, because I'm still too new. Seriously!?! When will someone finally open their eyes and see how much potentiel I have?

Siiigh!!! If I don't get a better position, I may consider looking somewhere else. I can't waste my entire life, here, hoping that one day miracle will hit on me. Afterall, I will never get to my second step (buying a house) if I can't earn a better paycheck.

So lets establish a plan and follow it:
    1. Get a better job/a higher income
    2. Get my driver's license
    3. Get my own nest
    4. Well~ The husband is not a necessity anymore.

I must follow the plan, but I definitely need to accelerate my pace if I want to get everything before I go to Heaven.

Are We Breathing The Same Air?

Up until today, I didn't know or have always denied the fact that a person can be of great cruelty/impoliteness...against another human. (No need to mention animal cruelty, which is well known to everyone.)

The situation is critical. Pointing fingers and giving barking orders are no behavior of a good leader. So, FAIL you...bitch...FIIITCH!

Oh! By the way, just in case nobody taught you this, it won't harm you to say thank you whenever someone does you a favor; and apologize whenever you are proven wrong. *sigh of disappointment* So peculiar that school and parents don't teach these social living knowledges anymore.

I don't know what to say anymore. I guess I can only shut my mouth and deal with it. Otherwise, they would think that I'm the one who has issues and will send me back for more orientations, instead of asking the other to say sorry. Pfff!!!!

Sin City

Flying to Las Vegas, Sunday, December 9, 2012...and back Saturday, December 15, 2012.

'What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.' But, there are some highlights, from my short week of vacation, I want and can still share with you.

1 - Air Canada is a MAJOR FAIL. It is definitely the last time I do business with them. From now on, I don't even want to hear the name. They would charge you 25$CAD for a luggage (I mean, who would travel without at least one luggage?) + 26.50$USD for the same luggage (ridiculous, who would bring but not bring back their luggage?), they let you starve and freeze for the entire 5 hours flight unless you pay, and service attitude is horrible.

2 - MGM Grand Signature is a private resort. Everything is nice, but a little far from the strip and costly (we had to pay 168$USD/room at check-out for 'service fees').

3 - American SAs provide excellent services, which makes everything more pleasant. Always a smile on the face, polite, know their products, and not intimidating you while you're trying to shop quietly.

4 - Not a suitable place for young children and people with weak lungs. All those creatures sitting in the casinos, either at the tables or in front of the machines, are smoking non-stop. At some point, I felt like I got cancer.

5 - The city is beautiful. No matter where you go, there are so much to see you're afraid to miss something.

6 - Foooood. Good food is everywhere. They give you big yummy portions at reasonable prices. Thus, eating in Montreal feels like restaurants are stealing money from my wallet.

7 - I spent way too much money there. The thing is you keep spending without knowing how much you spent. Everthing's so gorgeous and taxes are so low that you would feel guilty not to buy. Seriously, I spent nearly 200$USD in Caesars Palace/Shania's gift shop and another 200$USD in Sugar Factory for candies and................

8 - Streets, casinos and malls are crowded no matter what time you go out, but extreme and unbelievably CLEAN.

9 - Bathrooms are actually stylish, clean and smell good. Couldn't resist on drinking more water to visit their bathrooms more often...or just go even if I don't have to. Honestly, visiting public bathrooms had become one of my favorite activities in Vegas.

10 - Biggest blast of the week ~ I finally got to see Shania Twain: Still The One on 12.12.12.

Got to say that she hasn't lost one bit of her talent. She totally rocked the Colosseum...I have nothing to critisize, but to praise. The stage, her entrance (on a horse-shaped motorcycle), special effects, her voice, song choices, atmosphere, interaction with the public, her horses, clothing style, etc. etc. It was just magical/phenomenal/fabulous/fantastic/stunning/legendary.

...and Faith Hill & Tim McGraw: Soul2Soul on 14.12.2012.

Just by chance, I found out that they are also giving a concert while I'm staying in Vegas, so...in one trip, I get to see my two favorite country/pop singers. Mwahahahah!!!

Generally speaking, they are awesome and sweet as always. The beauty of their swagger just captivated my attention from beginning till end. Plus, Faith Hill's dresses and suits are breathtaking. Oh! Oh! Almost forgot to mention that a lucky bastard got Tim Mcgraw's guitar with him signing it on the stage. So jealous.

[Please notice that both concerts are respectively performed in my two favorite Hotels, Caesars Palace and The Venetian.]

11 - Took advantage of the hotel's hot salt-water swimming pool and the jacuzzi in our suite.

12 - Coincidentally, during our stay, there was the rodeo finale, which brings an extra flavour to the experience.

Unfortunately, all good things come to an end, and fast. I'm already back to reality...back to work.

PS. After this trip, I've seen all my favorite singers (Sally Yeh, Celine Dion, Shania Twain and Faith Hill) on stage...with my very own eyes. HOURA!!! Well, I'm maybe missing Cheryl Cole and Sammi Cheng, but I can live with that.

PS2. If anyone is interested in going, I'm considering it for a second time. Afterall, Shania has a 2 years residency at Caesars Palace. ^_^

Guo Pei's Haute Couture

China's top designer presented "Story of Dragon" at London 2012's women fashion show.

 

 

Yo No Comprendo

Life is so complex that it's perfectly normal if a simple human being like myself don't find an explanation to all. But...

Most recently, multiple things are tormenting the little quietly-sleeping meat trapped between my ears. Siiiiiigh! I hope to have the freedom to tell you everything in detail, but I might get into trouble (like last year) if I do. [Have no clue why I can't talk about my life in my personal space. *exhales of desperation* Not like if I'm lying or accusing others of things they haven't done. Tsk! My suggestion to you, don't do anything you don't want people to talk about.] So, I'll try to be brief and subtle.

    How can I possibly go to work if I'm on vacation (the one you personally approved)? Either you don't do your job correctly or you're a complete idiot who don't deserve to get paid.

    I'm scheduled to start at 0630 and you call me at 0600 hoping I'm still home so you can ask me to start at 0730 instead? Is this a joke? Even if I'm not already out of the house, I would be already up, so what's your point? Pffff!!! And the moment I got there (at 0615), you tell me to stick around till 0730 to start working? Well~ Let me give you two words. No way. Certainly not after the attitude you showed.

    Why can't I read or go on the internet if there are absolutely nothing for me to do? Anyway, I was just reading articles related to the job...getting myself familiar with some vocabularies. But, no~ You'd rather have me staring on the walls and ceiling, looking like an idiot.

    It is not reasonable to take for granted that a person is under our constant care (to the point that if we go on vacation, you'd think we're unresponsable people to leave that person alone), only because this person is living under our roof. This person, is also closely related to you...maybe even closer to you than me. I consider myself very generous to offer food and shelter to this person, unlike you who will only come visit once a year or won't even call.

Jeeez!!! I think it's time for me to stop right here, before I turn psychotic and start stabbing people in the eyes with a pen.

TVB DVDs

[Note to myself]

After visiting many places (physical and online) to buy TVB series (especially the ones done in the 90s and 00s)...

I guess the following sites are the most promising:

    - YesAsia
    - Five Star Laser Co
    - SoAsianStyle
    - ZoomMovie

Please let me know if you're aware of better sites. Danke!

Wanted Weapons

Ultraviolet's sword (Ultraviolet)

Selene's Baretta and Walther gun (Underworld)

A
ll Alice's weapons (Resident Evil)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Jill Valentine's retractable spear (Resident Evil)

 

Iron Man's heart (Iron Man)

Too Many Social Networks

Facebook - To stalk people and for people to stalk me back.
Blogspot - My personal journal.
Twitter - To tweet instant thoughts.
Weibo - To tweet chinese instant thoughts.
Instagram - To "tweet" pictures.
Tumblr - To document all WTH moments/things.

OMG! So many passwords to remember; and so many things to update.

Thank Gawd! I am still not going into Skype and MySpace and LinkedIn...