Death

What is death exactly. After a person passed away, does he go to heaven or have another life or stay close to us and protect us? Does he get to choose what he wants? I hope I'll get the chance to choose.

The word death is so scary. If you think about it seriously, you'll noticed that once a person's dead, you won't see him ever again. Or, this person won't know anything about this world ever again. It is like if he's been erased from this world and won't exist anymore. He will only stay in people's memory.

This weekend was the first time I ever experience a death in my life and it has to be my grand-father. He use to live with us, but for the last three years he'd been transfered to a residence.

When I first hear the shocking news, I was at work. I asked to leave earlier because my mother called me and told me to come and see my grand-father for the last time. I immediately put down everything and left. Once I arrived at the hospital, my family  told me that he was short of oxygen for six hours and was bleeding severely. When I saw his face, he didn't look like he's suffering. A little pale, but to me, it was like if he's sleeping. My mother, my father, my sister, my second uncle and his wife, my little aunt, my cousin and I was there. Later on, my first uncle and his wife arrived from Ottawa; My grand aunt and his husband took the plane and arrived from Toronto; my other cousin drove the way back to Montreal from Toronto. We can say that my grand-father had the chance to see everybody before he left this world. The only thing he missed was my second cousin and his wife from Ottawa and the soon to be born great grand son.

He didn't suffer much when the time came. All his whishes was filled. The whole family was there for his funeral, a lot of friends came from different places in a short notice and the weather was good.

At first I didn't cry, but I couldn't hold myself anymore at the end. I told myself that I have to be strong because I have to take care of my grand-mother, but it is hard. I won't be able to see my grand-father again or hear his voice ever again. All I have left is PICTURES of him and good memories. I will always remember you grand-pa, because you made and are a great part of my life.