A Day Not to Forget

After a whole night of thinking…I decided to go to the so called "victim" of my previous posts (the 2 I removed) to present my apologies. I did what I thought was supposed to be done.

(This is a fact…I WAS THERE) That particular morning, after he came in the office and I was done with my call, *took a deep breath* I went straight to him…said hello and asked if I could borrow 15 seconds of his day. The answer being positive, we went to the backstairs (his idea) of the building and I kindly/openly/bravely said the following: "Je suis vraiment désolée si je t’es causé du malaise/méconfort en exprimant mes opinions/commentaires sur mon blog." Once I’m done, I turned my back to him (wasn’t very polite from me) and left the place before he could say a word. I didn’t have more courage to hear what he had to say, which I should.

I felt so awful…I took the rest of the day off. I wasn’t able to spent one more second in that place of shame. I didn’t know how to face everyone there…

In the first place, I wasn’t very happy, because I thought that I had just lost face in front of someone…but if I think about it seriously…I’ve actually learnt something in that case. I know how it works in society (not telling you all my discoveries, I’m keeping them to myself…pretty selfish, I know…but you have to learn it by yourself to be able to have the experience engraved in your memory and never forget it). Now, I’m basically the dead-walking in the office. I’ll just do what I have to do…end of discussion. Meaning that I’ll still be polite and say "hello" and "byebye" to everyone I see, but…long conversations??? No~

I am not mad or trying to isolate myself…I just don’t want to cause any more trouble because of my lack of skill in communication, or have people misunderstand me. Sigh!!!

To put an end to this scandal…I bought a new Puma bag to myself.

PS. Still waiting for some sign of sorry from . and Anonymous.