我的大事回顧 2011

Overall, I can't say the year of 2011 was favorable to me. I had more downs (multiple failures) than ups...a complete disaster.

    - The e-mail account got hacked and had to start everything over.
    - A job loss due to stupidity.
    - Not able to find a decent job (with a stable schedule). *keep looking*
    - Sometimes, have to work in a horrible place with not too nice people.
              (You should know what I'm talking about if you follow my blog regularly.)
    - Bought a cellular phone, which THE most important app was missing.
    - Money going out of my account instead of the other way around.

Despite all these disappointments, there are two things I'm happy to have. I'm grateful to have a supportive family and found some extremely keuwl co-workers (depending on which unit I'm scheduled to).

Hope the upcoming year will be totally different. I can take no more. I'm afraid that if it continues that way, I'll turn crazy.

Anyway, keep fighting for what you're looking for, and one day (lets cross our fingers), you'll meet your goal.

Dream

Last night, I had such an interesting dream that I feel the urge to share with you.

First part: (Don't know if it has anything to do with my work in the birthing center) I was several months pregnant (from I don't know who) and about to give birth while watching a game of hockey (since when do I watch that sport) at the Bell Center. So, despite the monstrous freezing rain, Maxime, his friend and my sister rushed me to St.Mary's Hospital. There, after several hours of pushing and yelling...my baby boy came to life.

Entr'acte: Semi-awake, I texted my friend, telling her to be careful of the slippery road due to the freezing rain and got back to sleep. O_O

Second part: Somewhere in the examination room, I can see my father and uncle. (Have absolutely no clue what they were doing there, but who cares, right? What comes next is the most important.) After the examination scene, I can see myself (well dressed, of course) in a glamorously decorated ball room with lots of guests. Apparently, it was a party organized by Jean Todt for Michelle Yeoh, but for some reasons, she was extremely angry at him and ran away. Nobody knew what happened, until a secret agent unveiled the situation. Turns out that my son's father is Jean Todt. -_-"

*in panick* WHAAAT? What did I do? I ruined Michelle's marriage!!! How's that possible? I would never do this to her or anybody in a gazillion years.

Conspiracy

A covert organization alleged 'something', so I couldn't enjoy Christmas nor Boxing Day like everyone else...I am scheduled to work on the 23rd to the 27th of December.

Having that said, you don't have to look further, I have nothing else to say. Fairly normal, right? If I'm not doing anything other than work and stay home, well I have nothing special to tell you. And soon I will lose all my friends with this inconvenient schedule of mine (vedging at home when normal people go to work and vice-versa).

Lets hope my friends and family would understand. Seriously! Give me some time to alter my situation. I can do it. I can do it.

Hard Rock Head

My head is as hard as a rock...diamond.

Positively speaking - I believe if I insist and persevere, I will eventually get what I am looking for. Fight for my future and get a hold on my principles...sculpt my own character.

In correct english speaking - I am stubborn.

My Favorite Kelly

No, I'm not talking about the Hermès Kelly handbag, but Kelly Hu. Hehe!!!

Look at her hidden talent...

Aren't those Christmas cookies beautiful? The colors and design are so special, but that's not all, they look fairly delicious too.

Ahem! My love doesn't end here. Look at the following video and you'll see another amazing living specie.

Yeeeeees! This is her dog, Mushu. Isn't she smart and adorable? OMG. I feel like committing a crime...kidnap.

PS. I like today's date...11/12/13. ^_^

Cerebral Congestion

Does this ever happen to you? *frown eyebrows* Having a lot of things in your brain, but don't know how to express it and to whom?

P1: My mother was, is, and will be a good contestant, but sometimes she tend to share them with my father. That is the reason why I filter my stories and only tell her 95% about my stuffs.

P2: My sister could be a good one too, but she doesn't share her stuffs with me...as revenge, I'm not telling her as much either.

P3: Friends. Well, I'm sure they have their own things to take care of.

As a result, the best person is myself.

Here I go. Let's see what's in my head, tourmenting my poor little brain.

- Going through the last procedure and then I won't have anything else to do with Blue Cross.
- evilBay trouble. Something never arrived after nearly a month and another needs to be exchanged due to scratches. Argh!!! Need to be patient and wait some more.
- Want to go shopping for new clothes (my list continue to expand like a giant elastic), but my financial situation is an issue.
- Need to find myself a new job. But what is more important; wage, schedule, benefits, environment, company's prestige, distance to work, co-workers, or job description? If something happens, I'm afraid not to be able to choose correctly.
- I do not have a boyfriend, because I am single by choice.

I need to start living my life and not breathe it over...take my things in hand...handle my own destiny.

Xmas Wishlist 2011

Note: The month of December is Christmas month...I post this at the beginning of the month to give you sufficient time to prepare, so you don't have to rush and have no reason to forget. XD


Dear Santa,

I, Nora, had been a nice and gentle little girl this year...eventhough it was a rough year, I continued to behave. Thus, I strongly believe to merit a wonderful christmas gift from you. Here's what you can give me to make me happy.

    - Parajumpers, Moose Knuckles or Canada Goose parka.
    - Snowboard kit
    - Nixon 'The Banks' watch
    - Iron Man helmet
    - HMV gift card (have so much TV series to buy) 
    - New job
    - Lots of love
    - Minimal amount of luck
    - Lottery


Thank you Santa!!! I won't deceive you in the upcoming year...I promise to do my best as I always did.

Just The Style

I hate saying this (because I used to dislike that woman), but I love her dress and hairstyle (her appearance in TVB's 2011 41st 萬千星輝賀台慶). It is also fair for me to admit that she's been less annoying, lately.

Note: I'm thoroughly convinced that she cought my eyes only because my favorites didn't attend the event...she wouldn't have got the spotlight if 'mine' were present.

Angela Auntie

Angela auntie portayed by Elena Kong

When someone's role is suppose to be hated by everyone, but turns out to be adorable even if she's evil...is it a success or a failure?

Her appearance in <女人最痛>真係又靚，又可愛，又有型。Sigh! Why didn't I notice her earlier?

Side note: Maybe ATV is the problem. It is remarquable how their artists become famous once they change network to TVB, like: 沈殿霞, 劉松仁, 鄧萃雯, 羅嘉良, 謝雪心, 田蕊妮, and now 江美儀.

Seriously! Back to the subject. I ought to show you her most memorable 金句/quotes (you'll laugh your brain out...if you can imagine her face and tone while saying them):
*Cannot~ Cannot~
*No problem 啦!
*你放心，你都未死，我實長命過你既!
*人我見得多，係沒見過你地兩個甘卑鄙無恥，下流賤格，喪心病狂，狼心狗肺!
*你流量多，衛生巾頂唔住就用成人紙尿片啦!
*我送碳畢你只會令你回家燒炭!
*你賣鞋油噶，擦得感靚既？
*oh~ so bad~
*送你兩個字呀 - good luck!
*唔好得閒挪出黎甘多添呃，磨兩磨我驚你磨斷呃~
*咁大個靚女俾人撞到都無人理呀!
*阿嬸? 你知唔知阿嬸系點解呀?
*Bullshit!
*你依家又頭痛啊，你唔喺慣咗肚痛咩?
*我系真小人都好過妳系偽君子!

Oh! And, I think I already said this a million times (if you remember one of my previous posts), but I do L-O-V-E her clothes, jewels, haircut, makeup, and voice. XD

Quick Update

If you're wondering what's happening in my life lately (I, thank you, for your care)...the answer is - not much.

    - Going to work during irregular/awkward hours.
    - Trying to solve some cellphone problems.*
    - Start to shop for Christmas gifts (speaking of which, my list should be up any time soon XD).

Yah! That sums up my latest activities. And no~ you didn't see wrong...watching movies or series' not in the list (I should catch up though).

*It first didn't have the "android market" app pre-installed. I tried to play with it for hours and hours without making a difference, and thus went to the Sony store hoping for the best. A kind gentleman upgraded the software on my device, but unfortunately it didn't solve the persisting problem. Leaving the store with deception, I walked towards a cellphone stand...again hoping for the best. Pfff!!! Who knew it was the worst thing that could happen to me during that day? The only thing that little 'worm' did was telling me (with his eyes being stuck on his iphone screen) to try and download the app from the internet. Euh...I wouldn't be standing in front of you if I was able to do it, would I? What an attitude he got!?! I was about to turn his head and make him look at me while he talks. Tsk. Soooo impolite. This is where I start to be afraid and worried about the next generation.

#2 *Don't know if it's related to the software upgrade or what, but my battery drains out abnormally fast (and gets hot)...even without usage. I just bought another battery for my own safety, but whyyyyyy???? Why does all these things happen to me?

凰者

If I am a producer and were to produce a drama on 後宮明爭暗鬥生活, I would definitely cast following female artists *duh!* as my f'awesome main characters:

伍詠薇, 米雪, 關菊英, 謝雪心, 陳秀珠, 江美儀, 蔡少芬, 宣萱, 滕麗名, 李若彤, 林漪娸, and 韓馬利.

Isn't this the ideal cast for a drama of this kind? They have the severe and strong, but classy look. Beautiful~

With them portraying lead roles...the drame will peak over 40 points. Don't you think?

11.11.11

I'm not talking about the horror movie or any movie releasing on this date (Immortals). I just want to remind you of this rare date, so don't forget to make a wish at 11h11 on 11.11.2011.

Hope it works the same way as a shooting star...eventhough I'm not sure if either one is effective. >_<

好心有好報?

'Don't think too much...things usually come in unexpected moments to give you a great surprise.' That's the idea I put into my head to ease my worries.

Maybe lately it hasn't been doing well, but I believe...

SMHC - microwave anecdote...the conversation goes like this:
    Me: Excuse me, do you know how this microwave works?
    Man: Sure, let me help you. You don't work here?
    Me: Yes, I am. But, I'm new, so...
    Man: In which department your mom works?
    Me: Euh...my mother doesn't work here.
    Man: Oh! Your father, than?
    Me: Uhm! My father doesn't work here either. Why?
    Man: *laughs* Huh! Than you must be talented. Young people, like you, who work here are usually connected. Their mother or father help them get a position.

Another thing. After this weekend, I start to know my colleagues (from 6 North/surgical floor) better. They are soooo NICE and chill. (Remember, North only, not South.) Working in the evening is much more relax and people always bring stuffs (edible stuffs) to share. Now, I worry about my line.
    + Yesterday, they told me how much they like working with meeeeee. Apparently, I'm better/more impeccable than previous ones. Hahahah!!! I'm so flattered. XD

Seriously. I see myself as a good person, so I merit to get a good life, right? Will I be able to obtain a permanent position somewhere in that family (which I'm starting to like) or will I find my place somewhere else?

Note: If I am to work elsewhere, I will miss the team enormously...a feeling of attachment's already created.

人的醜與惡

人種係有事鍾無艷冇事夏迎春。Like it or not, it seems to have become a general rule. People tend to think about themselves first, which is understandable by all means...this is called human behavior. No one will care for one more than one's self.

You can be good to someone, but in return, this person might stab you in the back. Feelings and degree of care are never reciprocal from one to another person. All sorts of betrayal exist.

見死不救 is worst.
Hit and run outrage...lost of morality. That poor innocent 2 year old toddler.

See? Who can live up to the promesse of forever and eternity? When trouble comes...your closest one may not even know what happened or leave you there and flee.

我肯定自己唔係以德報怨果種人，不過如果你敬我一尺我會敬番你一象絕對唔會恩將仇報。

Have confident on people, but keep a limit...rely on yourself instead. There is no one more trust worthy than your own self. Take care of your dearest and closest one...yourself.

Sweet Notes?

No lah! No lah~! Sweet notes are never for me (same theory with me never winning the big prize). Starting to think that I don't have this kind of luck.

Once in a while, I get post-its on my bedside, on the living room's coffee table, on my coat, on my bag and on my computer. I'm more than happy to receive memos...it proves that someone at some time thought about me.

Is it always that c-weet c-weet? Uh-oh! Negative. A high percentage of the time is tell me to do this and do that.
    - Order stuffs on the internet.
    - Go to the bank.
    - Do the laundry.
    - etc.

Don't I do enough at work, already? I'd like to have some time off too. Or, at least, increase the number of real pleasant and lovely memos. I want to feel loved and important!!!

Panic Attack

At first, I was so happy to obtain a job in a hospital, because I can finally have a 妙手仁心 feel. BUT (always a 'but' when I start a sentence like this, right?), I'm not sure anymore.

    - Yes, I got some compliments saying I'm a fast learner, but it's not too convenient to make observe during 3 days, truly learn during 3 and already on my own tonight. *cold sweat* Afterall, there are so much to learn in a hospital. I'm still not too familiar with all the terms.
    - It takes me ~45minutes to get to work.
    - The place is so far from the metro and bus stop that I fear not knowing how to walk in the cold during winter.
    - An unstable schedule is the worst. Apparently, you give your availabilities and they'll call you whenever they need you. Euh...what if they don't? It means I'm jobless. Moreover, I can't stand the fact that I can't know what's going to happen to me in the near future. I want to be able to manage my own schedule = I want a stable job with normal working hours.

See With Your Heart

People are SOOO busy these days that they don't have time for anything.

The other day, I had some quality time with myself...sitting in a coffee shop (yes, Starbucks that is) and look out the window for no particular reason. I zoned out into my own bubble. At that time, a lot of things have passed through my mind. A resume of my life so far was part of the program, but that's not what I wanted to discuss in this post.

If you take a little time to look carefully, you will find out a lot. Human anatomy is the same for everybody no matter which race you are from (have eyes, ears, mouth, and nose), but by people's gestures and micro expressions...you can see their true feelings and sometime figure out what they are going through. It may look if they are only walking on the street, but it's not that simple. Look deeper. There are always people who are happy or sad; fast or slow; alone or with someone; successful or have nothing; thinking or mind clear; etc. You have to put in some effort and dig for your answer. Then, you'll find out that maybe you are not the best and don't own the most, but your life ain't a total waste either. There are reasons why you are here...you earned it.

Another 1st Day/1st Time In My Life

You know? There are many 1st days and 1st times in your life...1st day to school, 1st time dating someone,  1st kiss, 1st trip, 1st time having a kid, etc. (if I continue, this list may go on forever, so lets stop here)

Today, is my 1st day back to work, since...(good for you if you know the story, but don't bother to ask if you don't, because it's a sign that I didn't and still don't want to tell you) Oh! Just a little precision, I'm not saying back to the same job. I managed to find myself something else within a month of 'nothing to do.'

Where am I working now? What am I doing there?

Jeeeez!!! If you could've been patient for a moment, I was going to tell you. The answer is: St-Mary's Hospital Center as an administrative agent.

More specifically, today I was assigned to the surgical floor. But, eventually, I'll have the opportunity to experience other floors and units. For the moment, it is very challenging for someone who didn't study in the field...have to learn to speak their language and adapt myself to the environment.

Note: My post is again on availability/on-call, but I'd definitely like a permanent full-time post. I wish to get a more stable schedule, higher wage and better benefits. *in dilemma* So, is it too early to think of applying in another post or should I wait and see?

Special note: My direct supervisor looks a lot like Sandra Bullock. *_*

Education VS Success

When we were young, our parents use to tell us the importance of education if we want to have a bright future. What do you think? Is this true?

At a certain point, I agree with the idea that everyone should have a minimal degree of education/common sense...otherwise, the society will be in chaos. But, do we necessarily need higher education to earn a better life? I'm not too sure about that. (Seriously! For most people, we don't even use 50% of what we learnt in school.) The best example I can think of, right now...

William Henry (Bill) Gates - former CEO and current chairman of Microsoft

"Bill and a few other students formed the Lakeside Programmers Group, and nearly spent all of their time on the computer writing programs for various purposes. The group was even banned from the computer for a few weeks for hacking into the security program and altering data on the system. Many of the group members ended up working at Microsoft as programmers. Bill later went onto Harvard University, but dropped out in 1974 to form Microsoft with Paul Allen, who had been a friend of Bill Gates since childhood. Bill Gates had known Steve Ballmer at Harvard, and they worked on programs together for the Altair computer."


Steven Paul (Steve) Jobs - former chief executive of Pixar Animation Studios, former member of the board of directors of Walt Disney, and former CEO of Apple Inc.

"Jobs graduated from Homestead High School in Cupertino, California, in 1972. While in high school, Jobs spent his free time attending various after-school lectures at the Hewlett-Packard Company, where he also worked with Steve Wozniak as a summer employee.
After high school, Jobs attended Reed College for one semester but then dropped out. In 1974, he started going to Homebrew Computer Club meetings with Wozniak and began working for Atari. He saved his money and then traveled to India with a college friend, Daniel Kottke. He returned from India and continued working at Atari."

Beside those two geniuses, I'm sure there are others like them out there. Sometimes, what we need is an innovative idea and perhaps to be given a chance to express ourselves. Then, *POUF* we're a person no one will forget.

買咩車同食咩餐?

睇落好似九唔搭八，不過讀完就會清楚哂啦!

There are a lot of ways to go from a destination to another. But, when we talk about buying our own vehicle, most people have dilemma on deciding which kind to purchase...I'm not making myself an exception. *headache*

Vintage car - Might have a good look, but the engine's old. How long can it hold?
Sports car - Super look and engine, but I'm certainly not the sole and right owner.
Convertible car - Too many people would love to have it. The market is too large.
Luxury car - Will never be able to get unless I gain the jackpot.
Family/compact/full-equipped/van - Security guaranteed, but might be boring.
Bicycle - Not evolving and too much effort required.
Motorcycle - Easy going, but security is an issue.
Bus - No stability at all...anyone can get in and out at anytime.
Metro - Never stops at a station for more than a minute.
Train - Same as a metro, but it gives you more colorful views.
Plane - Straight to the point and will take off for another.
Boat/cruise/yacht - Floating on water not really knowing the path.

Up until today, I have walked by myself. I genuinely never thought about getting a car, because I never felt the need to. *pause* But, I start to realize the advantages of a car (just afraid to get the wrong one)...it can serve as your personal space when you need to cry, its there for you whenever you need it to, and it brings to the place (a great one) you want to be (you just need to be the one in control, so don't buy those auto-drive cars). Siiigh!!! Now, I'm afraid to have to walk my whole life...alone. Or, what if my ideal car's sold out as soon as I'm ready? And, NO~ I refuse to take those public transportation. I hate sharing. Yes, I am that selfish...I don't share with others.

After you have chosen your car, it is time to decide in which kind of restaurant you want to have your dinner. Hard decision. Italian? French? German? American? Asian?...etc.

Different types of food are prepared differently. So, make sure you aim for something you like and don't have allergic reaction. As for me, I don't really mind, because I can eat everything...just not fast food of any kind. Well, honestly, I do have a preference for 老火湯 which requires lots of time to boil. Take all necessary time to prepare it and then enjoy every little sip of it...extremely tasty/delicious and full of proteins. Mmmm-Hmmmm.

TVB Veterans

There are a lot of artists who had been serving TVB for many years, but don't have the recognition they deserve...stuck in the 2nd or 3rd line level. Here, I want to give them my sincere and truthful respect. I also want to use this post to tell you what their real name is.

林漪娸 - She's so gorgeous and has her own charm.

李國麟 - Not the most handsome, but his facial expressions are excellent.

陳秀珠 - One beautiful woman with talent.

朱咪咪 - She is highlarious and very cute.

劉家輝 - He has something attractive, but I don't know how to say.

周驄 - My favorite grandpa...the kindest and most elegant.

夏萍 - My favorite grandma...childish with class.

羅樂林 - Can portray many different roles.

孫季卿 - My second favorite grandpa. He' looks kind.

駱應鈞 - He can be a super villain and a super father.

蔣志光 - Multiple characters capability.

梁舜燕 - One of those easy-going grandma.

韓馬利 - Looks like an open-minded mother to me.

Jungle World

The world out there (outside of my house) is like a wild jungle. Feroce animals (lions, cougars, panthers, monkeys, etc.) are all over the place and looking for their prey. In other words, you have to be extremely careful and beware of everything and everyone, because every single thing you do may come back and bite you.

No one can be trusted, not even your own self (tell a lie to yourself 10x and you'll start to believe it).

If you want to survive in this salvage/competitive world, you need to know how to protect yourself from those 'bestias.' You never know when it secretly wants you dead (figuratively speaking) for no particular reason or because you don't remember since when you stepped on its tale. Please beware that I'm not telling you to attack others and do them harms, I said 'protect yourself.'

So, you need to learn how to sharpen your weapons and be prepared to face those creatures whenever they come after you. The moment you identify an attack, you may know how to dodge the strike.

Now, you're on your own and I'm on mine...Good luck!!!

Affair

According to the society's education, we know that it is not ethic and wrong to betray our other half and do such thing, but when emotions are part of the game...the heart tend to win over the brain.

Anyway, as soon as we hear a person having an affair, we immediately think it's that person's fault. But, is it really? We don't know. It is hard to say unless you're part of the relation.

Human feelings are so mysterious. Don't under-estimate it.

PS. The mistake from the one who cheats is not having the courage to tell the other party what went wrong in their relation and what could be done to save it.

Note: This is just a random subject. I am not having an affair and can't, because I don't even have someone to cheat on. Moreover, I am more faithful than you can imagine (I was a dog in my previous life).

Women And Their Shoes

A lot of women are highly attached to their purses and shoes (mix and match depending on the occasion), but I'm not too crazy about bags, so I'll talk about shoes. XD

There are different kinds of shoes: closed or open-toe; with or without heels; etc. For a woman, choosing the right shoe to wear is the equivalent of choosing the right suit for a man. More importantly, it is a CRIME to wear the same pair of shoe as another woman in the same event...even if it's by pure coincidence.

Each category of shoe has its own meaning...lets see what I can come up with...

Pumps: They are just a perfect fit, no matter where you go. Look at them! So gorgeous! *smack* Your office space, press conferences and casual parties would love to have them as part of their time.

Stilettos: They are extremely fabulous for the eyes, but an absolute pain for the feet. *tears of pain* In my personal opinion, I woud wear them only if I know that I won't be walking for more than 10 minutes top.

 Clogs: They are more casual and comfortable to wear, but I never knew how to appreciate them. Sorry!

Sandals: Who could possibly not have a pair of sandals? It is a good friend of summertime.

Flip-flops: Same as sandals, but even more casual. Generally, I would take them to grocery shopping or to the beach.

Sneakers: I used to heart them with all my heart (still do), but I try not to wear them in a daily basis. I reserve their time only if I plan to do some sports or a lot of walking.

Boots: Ah! Seriously! Boots are my favorites. They can go anywhere...even more event-friendly than pumps. Do you realize how awesome they truly are? They can multi-task very well.

Conclusion: Heels are sexy and empowered. *heart* But, my love is dedicated to the Boots family.

Note: Oooops! Sounded a little ridiculous, because I talk about them like if they are my friends. *humiliated smile* Well~ They're better friends than a lot of hypocritical people, so why not.

Diary of Fear

Forenote: I originally wanted to write a 'Diary of Hate', but I promised to be more positive, so the subject had slightly been changed. 

Each person has his/her own fear (sensation of discomfort) towards certain things and/or situations. As a normal human being, I do have my own dreads.

Some of them are insignificant and could be "tolerable" (Nah! Not really, but can be managable with greater efforts):
- Creepy-crawlers.
- Height.
- Homo sapiens.
- Dirtyness.
- etc.

The rest of them might require an even bigger courage to overcome:
- The idea of death...not knowing what will happen to you after that moment (Reincarnation? Heaven? Hell? Nothing at all?). It is like if you have lived all those years for nothing. Nobody will remember of your existence.
- The future. A person's faith has nothing to do with whether the person is good or bad. I start to believe that there's no such thing as karma. With years of observation, I have come to the conclusion that life is unfair. Good people don't always get a good ending and bad people don't always get punished. Anyway, I will continue to do what I have to do, just in case my time hasn't arrived yet. At some point, I also believe that someone is watching us up-there. Sigh! I'm all confused. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I can't even be clear on what I truly believe.
- Afraid of my own body structure (anatomy). Yes! Brilliant! I should grab this opportunity to analyze myself. (see section below)
- To lose. I don't like losing against others and certainly not failing myself...need to get everything done the way it's planned. I may not look like I care, but it highly disturbs me when people compare me with my sister and say how she's better. The worst is...I don't need you to tell me, because I already know.
- etc.
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Last minute addition. It is a little off subject, but I want to use this moment to think about what I'm not satisfied with my own body.

Self criticism: shoulders too broad, waist too large, tibias too short, fingers too similar to elephant legs, eyes too small and simple eyelid, buttocks too big, breast too small, neck too short, face too wide and square, jawbone too pronounced, forehead too short, hair too thick and hard, skin too dry, etc. Jeeeez!!! This list can go on for ever. It's definitely a big project whenever I decide to renovate myself. LOL You might think I'm being harsh with myself and exaggerating, but I see it as being honest.

A person can only improve if he/she knows his/her own weakness, right?

Prepare To LOL (Part V)

- Can you imagine someone who wants to file a claim because her meat perished in her out-of-electricity fridge?

- How ridiculous to call us because the pump of the bottle of cream he bought is not working. What do you want us to do? Isn't it just logic to bring it back to the store and get another bottle?

- Can you believe a grown-up can't count to 8?

- Some don't know their provinces. You ask them with the insurance company of which province...they will answer in a mocking tone "Bah! Montreal." or "What do you mean? Toronto."

對人歡笑，背人垂淚

Everyone thinks I'm a happy person because I always smile in front of people. But, no one will ever know the other me when I'm all alone in my bed. During the night, when people sleep, I am awake thinking about so much things that I have difficulties entering in deep sleep. Other times I worry about things which will make me get horrible dreams. These days, I continuously see those 2 women (keep this anonymous before other troubles come after me) and hear their voices in my NIGHTMARES. The same scene keeps poping up. I'm so tired and want to move on, but in my subconscious it is bothering me big time. They are literaly haunting my soul. Anyhow, I'm just not the kind of person who will go and tell my problems to everyone...I prefer to keep it to myself.

而家先唎做三失中女，你話死唔死?!? 不過我唔會吟容易比佢一嘢就打沉嘅!

Note: A friend of mine criticized me for my own good and it's 100% true what he said. He pointed out how most of the time I'm being negative and always complaining...while I should be more positive, then maybe I will have more friends. Thus, from now on, I decide to make a great effort to change that bad habit and think positively in each and every situation.

Prepare To LOL (Part IV)

- OMG! Received a call from an intolerable woman who needed medical assistance. She literally refused to pay for anything whatsoever, because she already paid her part (the insurance) and now it is our responsability to deal with the rest. WOW! I'm not saying that you are not covered, but just have to pay in advanced and submit the fees to the claims for a reimbursement. What can I possibly do if the company I'm working for doesn't have any deal with local hospitals (meaning we can't arrange billing for no one)? That woman made me search and called several hospitals for nothing, it comes to the same conslusion I told her at the beginning...not because I'm useless, but those are the rules. So, if you don't know how it works, shut your big mouth and follow the instructions as you are told...and STOP SAYING THAT I'M INCOMPETENT.

- A woman in Paros requested us to immediately transport her to a specific hospital in Athen for better care. Euh...the problem is the fact that she doesn't even know the name oe address or phone number of the hospital (nor her group leader or friends), but is disappointed on us for not being able to communicate with the hospital instead of relying on her to get the info.

- He is the one insured with us, but he calls to say that his father is dying from Accident vasculaire cérébral (ACV). Bah! Does it make any sense to you? The father is obviously not covered. It took me a big fat minute to figure out that his father is dying in Canada and he needs to interrupt his trip to get back to Canada and be at his father's bedside.
1-We can't repatriate him, because he's not injured.
2-Why use a calling card, speaks incredibly fast and be impolite?
3-We don't pay return tickets in advanced, so no can help if you don't have a MC.
That moron also told me how people there don't speak french nor english very well, but when he asked for a pen to write down the reference number, he said: "do you have a *with a french pronunciation* stylo and a piece of paper".

- McGill student? TSK. They already have a coverage with limited benefits + he didn't renew his contract. What do you think my answer to him was?

- A man asked if we can authorize a syphilis test recommanded by one of his partnerS doctor. Hmmm! The point of insurance is to cover urgent cares...this preventive test is clearly not an emergency.

- What's the rush? Why can't people just let me finish what I have to say? Maybe the answer you are looking for is in the 2nd part of my sentence. Sigh!

Prepare To LOL (Part III)

- A young couple going to Mexico for vacations. You must think 'wow, lucky them!' Uh uh! Not too fast. The moment the girl got on the plane, she started to suffer from anxiety, but she decided to endure 4 hours of flight in that piece-of-giant-flying-metal. Once, they got to their destination, she fled to a medical clinic and wanted to get back immediately. Obviously, my job is to assist those travelers, so I had to do my best to get her back as soon as possible. But, my question was...how is she going to get back? Again, by plane? Will she be able to tough it up? *exhales* Poor the boyfriend who had to come back with her and missed a wonderful chance on a great vacation.

- When someone calls their insurance to file a claim, you must think of a reimbursement of at least 3-4 digits worth. I, here tell you that you are terribly wrong. There was a woman who called from Kunming, because she had to consult a doctor for her hair loss problem due to the change of atmosphere/climate. Therefore, I opened a file with her and did a follow-up to see if she's doing better. At the end, I asked how much the consultation cost, so I could put the information in. *mocking laugh* Her answer to me was..."Not much. According to the currency, it might come to 2$CAD." Seriously? Who would go through a stack of forms to claim 2$CAD? This is more than ridiculous.

- A man speaking with a heavy accent called to report how sick his child is. As a good and responsible employee, I followed the procedures and respected all protocols by asking him important questions in order to be able to help him adequately.  The man was highly impatient and yelled at me, saying that I have no right to ask those questions and investigate on him. WOW! Did you enter the country illegally? Jeeez! At some point, he also said how I don't understand their situation, because his son is dying and I'm comfortably sitting (which is not true at all) in an office with AC. Hmmm!!! If I remember correctly, he said at the beginning of the conversation that his son's being sick for a week already. Can you blame me if you didn't care sooner? Oh! Even better. That man, was telling me what to do...gave me orders. He commanded me to look for a specialist up on the internet and give him the address. Yes! A specialist, because he refused to take his son to a hospital and have those "unexperienced interns see him."

- *laughing my lungs out* This one is a special one. I thought it was a blonde joke, but it is 100% true. A pregnant woman asked in a trembling panic voice..."if I'm pregnant and had sex with my boyfriend, will my foetus-baby-girl get pregnant too?"

- The girl's last stop is in Burlington and is suppose to come back to Montreal by bus. With a little bad luck and a lot of stupidity...her luggage was delayed and instead of seeking for a solution, she decided to get back anyway. To be able to help her, I asked for a description of the article, but instead of answering the question coherently, she chose to make fun of me. She told me she had a bottle of alcohol in there, then turned to her friend and laughed with the idea of us buying her a new bottle. How immature?!? If you had the intelligence to understand the question, I asked for a description, not what is in the bag. Pfff!!! For my revenge (which is what we truly need anyway), I told her that we'd need a written report by a competent authority (a policeman, in her case) to prove the truth of the situation. Sorry my dear smart-ass, guess you'll have to get back to Burlington or no reimbursement.

Glass Half...

...full or empty is your perception.

People tend to push themselves to say 'full' because they want to show others how optimistic they are...show a healthy image. These people say things like: "You need to look on things positively and appreciate everything you have because there are people who don't even have half of what you have. Think of those kids who are starving in the 3rd world or those men who got dismembered during a war or the ones who don't have a shelter, etc."

Well~ Seriously! I consider myself in the middle class, which means there are equally a lot of people who are wealthier and better looking than myself. Why can I not feel inferior if it is the truth? Is it wrong to accept the reality as it is? Or it is better to deny the truth and lie upon yourself and say things are always going to work out?

My very own conclusion: Whether the glass is half full or half empty, the situation remains the same unless you are able to add more water to your glass.

FYI: If I say 'half empty,' doesn't mean I'm negative, but only because half is not enough and I expect more.

Prepare To LOL

...in sad cold tears.

Question: What do you do when you are very sad/depressed? Shopping? Yell at someone? Walk on the street not knowing where to go? Eat? Watch a movie? Sleep? Pfff!!! Normally, I would clean the house, but this time I choose to get my pillow wet.

--> Today is officially the most HU-MI-LIA-TING day of my entire life up until now. Please, don't ask. I want to save some pride out of this sudden/unexpected/un-planned/difficult/shocking situation, which leaves me hanging in the air and not knowing what to do next, because there were no place for a 2nd chance.

Realization: The earth continues to turn even if you're hurt, right? So, I will allow myself 10 more minutes of insanity and then I have to bring myself together and move on. I know I can get through this. I can. If I think I can, I can. Yes, I can.

(I will forever remember the words they said, the look on their face and what they did) I, HERE, SWEAR AND PROMISE MYSELF THAT THIS IS THE FIRST BUT ALSO THE LAST TIME I GET TREAT LIKE THIS. IT WON'T HAPPEN TO ME EVER AGAIN!!!

Prepare To LOL (Part II)

- A worried mother reports her son to have fallen out of the car, because he didn't properly lock the door.

- A couple was watching a scary movie together. The girl snucked up on her boyfriend and grabbed him out of fear. But, I guess the boyfriend had more fear than her...he lashed out and struck her directly in the nose. Uh! Oh! Broken nose for watching a scary movie. I wonder which movie they were watching.

- A woman brings her McMurdo to camping, when needed, she can use it to fire a signal to the Canadien Army and they'll come to her rescue based on her GPS signal. How exaggerated, but keuwl is that?!?

- A man came back from his trip, landed in New York City to pick up his car and drive back to Montreal. Unfortunately, the parking lot in New York, where he left his car was completely flooded, so his car is totally useless. Bah~ What am I suppose to do? What can I say? He was already back from his trip, he wasn't injured, and it wasn't a rented car. If he has a minimal degree of intelligence, he would know that the person he needed to call was his own car insurance and not waste my time on complaining on something which is not even valid.

- A woman (a chinese one) still in Texas with her daughter having an ear infection. I wasn't the one who opened the file with her, but she called to tell me she found 2 returning flight tickets, but they are in the first class. I answered that we generally cover economic class tickets and if she needs assistance, I am more than happy to help. I don't know if she didn't hear or didn't understand or chose to ignore me, but she drastically changed subject and asked what her benefits are (hospitality, meals and car rentals). Okay. I kept my cool and politely tell her that I have to contact the insurance company in question in order to confirm the information, because we are not THAT company, but a company mandated by it. Moreover, we are still waiting for her daughter's medical report. Then, she lost her patience, started to yell at me (with her half understandable english), said that I'm not nice to her, that not trying to help her and hung up without giving me the chance to explain further.

Suit Up, Boyz!

To my eyes, no matter how ugly and shrimped-up (body posture) a man is, he will have a better looking (doesn't make you the hottest man on earth, but will definitely embellish your look in general) if he wears a suit...a well-cut and to his size suit. This rule may be applied on anyone, no discrimination.

As Barney Stinson (Neil Patrick Harris' character in How I Met Your Mother) says "Suits are full of joy. They're the sartorial equivalent of a baby's smile."

Conclusion: A suit is like a magic outerwear which can enhance one's physical appearance.

Note: I give extra points to an all black suit (with a silky lapel) and an all black shirt, matching with a sexy red tie. An even greater preference if it's from Burberry, Giorgio Armani or Hugo Boss.

911 Begins

I dedicate this post to my twin (not my biological one, but the one who lives in my mirror). Who she is? Read on and you'll see.

The other me is the one who adores to talk about movies and dramas and celebrities. As some of you may already had a glance...I created a new blog (http://www.couchcriticduo.blogspot.com/) to talk about cinema stuffs.

Today is the official grand opening. So sad there ain't virtual red carpet walking. I'd love to put on a nice dress. -_-"

Note: Duo means me and my partner HSK, who is also a crew member/writer. Can't wait for her to start writing.

Ex-cuuuuse me!?!

It is absolutely correct to start a conversation by asking how the other person is doing. BUT, it is utterly rude and impolite not to wait for the answer and start talking about yourself. It gives the impression that you don't care and just want it all to be about you. Then, why do you even bother to ask?

I like to listend and I know I'm a good listener, but I sometimes need to express myself too. There are certain things I would like to share/get them out of my heart and brain. I want someone to care about me. Sigh! As I always say, things can't always go the way we desire. Unfortunately, no one seems to be interested in filling that position, I will continue to share my thoughts with my blog/my virtual personal space.

(I'm aware that there are people out there dying of curiousity to know what is going on with me...to gossip, but I'm not to satisfy their dirty wish.)

Today Is Your Day

This is Shania's new song. Amazing, isn't it?

I am so inspired by this song. I have the feeling that her concert in Las Vegas will be a huge success. So happy to see her back in a strong way, still looking good as old times and her voice reaching your soul. *in Heaven*

PS. She wrote the song herself.

Cannot Share

Just thought about something. Remember how I said I am going to share every little detail with the one I love? No secrets in the relation? Well, there is ONE thing I cannot share...the image of myself sitting on a toilet bowl. OFL

Prepare To LOL (Part I)

"Prepare To LOL" is a serie of compilation of non-sense people I encounter/hear at work. At my previous job, I thought all idiots went into the realestate business, but they actually are everywhere...places where sunlight could or couldn't touch (no difference, not like in Lion King).

Note: If you have done something similar to those people, please don't feel targeted, it's only pure coincidence. Don't be too serious...read them as if they are short stories written for kidz of a certain age.

- There are parents who must not love their children and want them to be humiliated for the rest of their life. Seriously, who would name their newborn Star or Noel with their birthdate on December 25th? I am so thankful my mother is not that cruel.

- A woman was crying on the phone, demonstrated that she's in a lot of pain, told me she couldn't stop the bleeding and begged me to help her. A normal person would think it's something very serious which needs immediate care. At that time, I wondered why she didn't call an ambulance, but call her insurance company. My reflex was to refer her to the closest hospital instead of asking a bunch of questions and let her bleed to death. Pfff!!! The truth is...she was in her period, put a tampon in and couldn't remove it.

- A girl is living in the States to study. One night, she grabbed a cab to get back to her apartment, but the moment she was heading to the front door, she suspected that the taxi driver's following her. What will you do in a situation like this one? That lady couldn't find her keys in her bag and decided to use her hand to break the front door's window hoping to do enough noise to wake her neighbors. Yes. With her bare hand. At the end, she ran to the other side of the street and got help from people who were sitting in their porch. Jeeez!!! Why didn't you do that in the 1st place?

- An old man and his friend had no other activities more interesting than going to a cemetary. Don't ask me what they planned on doing there, I didn't want to know. The only thing I found out and am able to tell you is how the accident happened. Upon their arrival, they found a spot and parked the car in the assigned area. Once it's all set, they got out respectively on their side of the car. The moment they stepped out of the car, it started to fell back. One of the old men got hit severely on his left leg and the olther one got dragged by the car. Both of them are now in the hospital. Isn't it creepy?

 - A nurse called us to verify coverage and benefits on a patient...nothing unusual. I took a look in the file and informed her that we're still waiting for the member's insurance company to validate the information. The nurse's automatic reply was: "okay, I'm going to cancel his appointment then." Euh...why would you cancel his appointment? If he has one, it's because he needs it, no? That stubborn-heartless nurse wouldn't make any exceptions. I had to tell her that in the worst case scenario, the patient can pay for the visit and get reimbursed, but she has the duty to treat her patients. I really don't understand how she could be a nurse and "take care" of people.

- A woman with a heavy chinese accent called to report her husband being hospitalized in China. I asked her basic questions, like how did he got injured, what is the diagnosis, and in which hospital is he. She disn't know anything about her husband's situation. I mean, when you pick up the phone and call your insurance company, what do expect we ask? Why can't you prepare yourself before calling instead of wasting your time and my time? Finally, she told me her husband is suffering of something beside the liver. WOW! There are lots of organs around the liver, can you be more specific? After a moment, she told me she knows what it is in chinese (mandarin), but not in english. The word is 膽囊. 0_0 Huh! Is it the pancreas? Well, I had to google it to know that 膽囊=gall bladder. At least I got the diagnosis even if I didn't get the rest.