Case of Desperation

My self-esteem level is close to 0 or even in a minus condition. It is one of the reasons why I prefer listening to people than speak up.

Why do I have a sister smarter than me? That is not the point, but why do people always have to compare us (makes me feel inferior. Are people aware of that? Do they care about other people's feeling?)? Why my mother said that it is hard talking to me? Why? Why? Why? (tired of thinking, my brain is not that big and fast. Remember?)

Not only my self esteem close to 0, but also desperate (not that I'll commit suicide, but close to a certified case) and pissed.

I'm not an intelligent person, but can you believe that there are people actually WORST than me (I'm sure that HSK will agree with me)?

Case #1 -- Me: May I have your member code please?

             Anonymous: E1234

             Me: It's the 5 digits one.

             Anonymous: Well, yeah! E1234.

             Me: Euh! It's 5 digits, 5 numbers.

             Anonymous: Oh! Ok! 56789

             Me: Thank you. (laughing hard out of myself)

Case #2 -- Me: Do you see "tools" on the top right corner of this page?

             Anonymous: Nope.

             Me: Okay. What do you see than?

             Anonymous: I see the picture, ...

             Me: Oh! The other right. (Laugh with tears)

             Anonymous: Okay! Okay! Now I see it.

Case #3 -- Me: Can you click on ...

             Anonymous: Doesn't work.

             Me: Can you try ...

             Anonymous: Nope. Not working.

             Me: Okay. So can I try with your codes to see if it works?

             Anonymous: Sigh! (a big one) You are making me tired. I want to talk with Mathieu.

             Me: Well, he's online. I'm able to help you.

             Anonymous: NO, I don't want to talk to you.

             *hung up*

             O_O

Case #4 --

Alright. I'll stop here. Otherwise, you'll be sticking on your chair for hours just to read my blog. lol.

Note: This level of desperation is basically caused by --> pressure at school (lots of readings and paperwork), pressure at work (people are stupid), lack of money (didn't get all shifts that I wanted, because someone is incompetent and can't do a proper schedule), some relations gone bad (don't want to talk about it) and ... EVERYTHING IS BAD.