Life is something you can't foresee...and that is no matter how hard you try. Crystal balls, palm reading, tarot cards, and whatever techniques you may think of, are only tricks. There are no scientific proofs to demonstrate their accuracy.
If you can't rely on any tools to predict your future, why not make your own decisions based on your own knowledge or instinct; and start trusting yourself? At least you won't be letting those stuffs control your faith/love life/career. Make yourself the only person you count on; or blame, if anything goes wrong.
It may seem easy to say, but to actually do it, it's a complete other story. The hardest part of it all... is to confront the unknown.
Despite the uncertainty, no matter what decision I make, I dare not do bad things, because I am a person who believes in karma. I believe that every good action I do, will eventually pay-off one day. (This may be the reason why I think so much and do so little. I am scared to fail myself. I am scared to disappoint people I love. Failure is frightening.) On the other hand, those who do bad things, may be people who don't believe in karma.
Well~ You think karma doesn't exist, because you're not there to witness people surfer their karma. The only thing is, you never know when and how it'll come to you.
You, not knowing (don't forget human beings are still very ignorant on a lot of subjects), doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
10.7.13
3.7.13
Disorders
Now that I think of it...it is not quite fair for a teacher to grade a student (like myself) who's suffering from Anomic Aphasia and Dischronation. No wonder I didn't do good in History classes. It is not my fault if I can't associate names with faces and don't understand the succession and duration of events.
I should go back to school and ask for a grade adjustment.
I should go back to school and ask for a grade adjustment.
Prosopagnosia
After watching Faces in the Crowd, starring Milla Jovovich...you'll see yourself interested by the Prosopagnosia disorder.
In Greek "prosopon" = face, and "agnosia" = not knowing...aka Face Blindness.
Can you imagine yourself not recognizing your own reflection? Each time you see your very own face in the mirror, it is like looking at a complete stranger...not to mention your family and friends.
The worst thing for me, would be, not to be able to watch movies like a normal person anymore, because characters faces will keep changing, so the story won't make any sense. *trembling in fear*
I guess my worries are not as great importance as Milla's, in the movie. The killer could literally be standing right in front of her and she won't even know. *GASP*
16.6.13
Back To Ground Zero
Last week, I made the decision to step outside of the demoralizing office and try something new...accept the shopper position.
I did like the whole idea of the job. It was quite different, interesting and challenging.
The only problem I had was the physical demand. I am not saying that I'm weak, but this is genuinely a man's job. Lifting gigantic and heavy boxes' definitely not for a little woman like myself. (Not going to start debating on equality between men and women)
*Sigh* Here is me declining the offer and going back to my old position (tomorrow). *deep breath* Yay! Lets go back and get that you-are-such-a-loser look. Am I exaggerating? No. Not at all. Some people already gave me the speech about how they are going to make my life miserable from now on.
Well~ What do you expect me to say and react? Start crying and quit? Or start bitching?
I am a well educated person. I am not doing none of these non-sense. Moreover, I am not a quitter, so I'll tough this through and make sure that you admit you've under-estimated me from day one.
Hey! No matter what you say behind my back, at least I've tried, I'm being honest with myself and have nothing to regret.
Afterall, the key to success is ambition.
I did like the whole idea of the job. It was quite different, interesting and challenging.
The only problem I had was the physical demand. I am not saying that I'm weak, but this is genuinely a man's job. Lifting gigantic and heavy boxes' definitely not for a little woman like myself. (Not going to start debating on equality between men and women)
*Sigh* Here is me declining the offer and going back to my old position (tomorrow). *deep breath* Yay! Lets go back and get that you-are-such-a-loser look. Am I exaggerating? No. Not at all. Some people already gave me the speech about how they are going to make my life miserable from now on.
Well~ What do you expect me to say and react? Start crying and quit? Or start bitching?
I am a well educated person. I am not doing none of these non-sense. Moreover, I am not a quitter, so I'll tough this through and make sure that you admit you've under-estimated me from day one.
Hey! No matter what you say behind my back, at least I've tried, I'm being honest with myself and have nothing to regret.
Afterall, the key to success is ambition.
10.6.13
Making The Right Decision
As you all already know, I want out of here so badly that I would genuinely do anything...anything in my power, but nothing illegal. XD
I'm in such misery right now that I would jump on the first opportunity thrown to my face.
And this is what's happening RIGHT NOW. I've been offered to do another position, but is it the right one to take? Or should I be patient? After this hell hole, I've become paranoid. I'm doubting every decision I make...wondering if it's the best.
Anyway. Whatever I say, I still took the chance to try something else and work with better people. *crossing fingers* I will allow myself a 20 days trial and see how it goes. Worst case scenario, I'll look for something else.
It is better to try and accept our own mistake than keep wondering "what if..."
I'm in such misery right now that I would jump on the first opportunity thrown to my face.
And this is what's happening RIGHT NOW. I've been offered to do another position, but is it the right one to take? Or should I be patient? After this hell hole, I've become paranoid. I'm doubting every decision I make...wondering if it's the best.
Anyway. Whatever I say, I still took the chance to try something else and work with better people. *crossing fingers* I will allow myself a 20 days trial and see how it goes. Worst case scenario, I'll look for something else.
It is better to try and accept our own mistake than keep wondering "what if..."
24.5.13
Black Hole
This black whole is bigger, deeper and blacker than the one they taught you at school. Moreover, it will suck you in indefinitely...you just won't have a chance to get out. Pray for Miracle to happen is the only thing you can do.
The atmosphere/vibe is utterly negative...how do you expect me to be motivated? It is psychologically impossible.
They talk non-stop (or is it more "complain continuously" to make it politically correct) to each other and I'm the one being ignored. I do my effort and try to start a conversation, but only short answers were given back. But the same subject, brought up by someone else, more details were thrown in the air. WTF!?! At some point, I feel as if they don't want to talk to me or we are having a generation gap (option 2 is more likely, isn't it?), so I'm giving up. I do my work, the best I can, and go home.
Also, I am never invited to their secret little meetings (not that I want and insist on going, but it'll be nice to know that I count for something). Basically, I'm just a meaningless bouche trou. I feel left out, if y'know what I mean.
When you try to be at the top of your game, that's when these evil people will do whatever it takes to hold you down and make you feel like rubbish...which I do at this instance.
Beside making you feel like you're worth nothing, either they don't know how to train someone (Seriously, if you are not satisfied with the other person's performance/way of working, shouldn't you not let that person train me? Isn't it obvious that I will do the work the way I was shown?) or purposely withold information in order to dig a hole for you to fall.
Here, again, it demonstrates how it makes impossible to do a good job...the information given was wrong or insufficient.
Siiiiiigh!!!!! It will never get better, unless they are ready to see me as a teamplayer. My word.
The atmosphere/vibe is utterly negative...how do you expect me to be motivated? It is psychologically impossible.
They talk non-stop (or is it more "complain continuously" to make it politically correct) to each other and I'm the one being ignored. I do my effort and try to start a conversation, but only short answers were given back. But the same subject, brought up by someone else, more details were thrown in the air. WTF!?! At some point, I feel as if they don't want to talk to me or we are having a generation gap (option 2 is more likely, isn't it?), so I'm giving up. I do my work, the best I can, and go home.
Also, I am never invited to their secret little meetings (not that I want and insist on going, but it'll be nice to know that I count for something). Basically, I'm just a meaningless bouche trou. I feel left out, if y'know what I mean.
When you try to be at the top of your game, that's when these evil people will do whatever it takes to hold you down and make you feel like rubbish...which I do at this instance.
Beside making you feel like you're worth nothing, either they don't know how to train someone (Seriously, if you are not satisfied with the other person's performance/way of working, shouldn't you not let that person train me? Isn't it obvious that I will do the work the way I was shown?) or purposely withold information in order to dig a hole for you to fall.
Here, again, it demonstrates how it makes impossible to do a good job...the information given was wrong or insufficient.
Siiiiiigh!!!!! It will never get better, unless they are ready to see me as a teamplayer. My word.
15.5.13
Falling Apart
Everything in my life seem to be falling apart.
(I should maybe rename my blog and call it "Shit Corner.")
1- Because of my aunt, I went to a blind date and encountered a not-too-bad looking guy. But he either likes to 'ttyl' people or is not interested (well, neither am I, but at least I have the courtesy to answer my text messages).
2- At work. Pffffff Do I have to mention that it is a complete mess? After the so-call training, I am doing her position for the last month (without getting her salary) and still not sure when I can get back to the position I applied for in the first place.
3- How is it possible not to replace a person who's on vacation? Now, everything falls on me. In other words, I am doing two positions without getting a double pay and/or overtime.
4- Today, it's even a greater joke. That person is still on vacation and another called sick. What's the result? Well~ The one on vacation is obviously not replaced and the one who is sick was replaced by a person who's never been trained. HAHAHAHAH!!! Not only have I spent an hour waiting until someone comes in, but also wasted an hour to show the basics to that newbee.
If you ask me how I like my new job? I would honestly tell you that I'm not too thrilled about it. Nothing is fair. I'm fed up. FED UP.
(I should maybe rename my blog and call it "Shit Corner.")
1- Because of my aunt, I went to a blind date and encountered a not-too-bad looking guy. But he either likes to 'ttyl' people or is not interested (well, neither am I, but at least I have the courtesy to answer my text messages).
2- At work. Pffffff Do I have to mention that it is a complete mess? After the so-call training, I am doing her position for the last month (without getting her salary) and still not sure when I can get back to the position I applied for in the first place.
3- How is it possible not to replace a person who's on vacation? Now, everything falls on me. In other words, I am doing two positions without getting a double pay and/or overtime.
4- Today, it's even a greater joke. That person is still on vacation and another called sick. What's the result? Well~ The one on vacation is obviously not replaced and the one who is sick was replaced by a person who's never been trained. HAHAHAHAH!!! Not only have I spent an hour waiting until someone comes in, but also wasted an hour to show the basics to that newbee.
If you ask me how I like my new job? I would honestly tell you that I'm not too thrilled about it. Nothing is fair. I'm fed up. FED UP.
27.4.13
Birthday Wishlist 2013
Well~ People who "knows" me, shouldn't even need to consult this post. Sigh!
Anyway. Just in case. We never know.
* Richard Mille (limited edition) - Michelle Yeoh's RM051 Phoenix watch (replica)...you just won't find the original and even if you do, it'll be wayyyyy too expensive.
* Burberry watch
* DVDs
* 金庸's 神鵰俠侶
* Dr. Marten's
* Faith Hill's signed mic
Thank you.
Anyway. Just in case. We never know.
* Richard Mille (limited edition) - Michelle Yeoh's RM051 Phoenix watch (replica)...you just won't find the original and even if you do, it'll be wayyyyy too expensive.
* Burberry watch
* DVDs
* 金庸's 神鵰俠侶
* Dr. Marten's
* Faith Hill's signed mic
Thank you.
26.4.13
Dealing With Crap
Two weeks of horrible training, then...two weeks of I-dump-you-alone-so-deal-with-the-crap-yourself.
WTH!?! Quite honestly, it is not fair. It is not possible, even for the smartest human on earth, to learn everything correctly only by observing from the side, with minimal explanation.
For example, how am I suppose to create a fiscal year report if I've only seen it once? Ridiculous, isn't it?
Once an error occurs, it's "Oh! No no no! If this this this happens, you should this this this." Pffffff! Are you serious??? This should have been said during the training, not when I'm struggling to do the job and a tiny little thing goes wrong. Can people think before blaming someone? Is there any common sense? Well~ No~~~
Oh! And what does it mean "we will switch places whenever I'm fed-up"? Euh...I didn't apply for YOUR position and I am certainly not earning the same salary as you are.
Whatever. I give up. I'm just like a prisoner who does her time and get out.
WTH!?! Quite honestly, it is not fair. It is not possible, even for the smartest human on earth, to learn everything correctly only by observing from the side, with minimal explanation.
For example, how am I suppose to create a fiscal year report if I've only seen it once? Ridiculous, isn't it?
Once an error occurs, it's "Oh! No no no! If this this this happens, you should this this this." Pffffff! Are you serious??? This should have been said during the training, not when I'm struggling to do the job and a tiny little thing goes wrong. Can people think before blaming someone? Is there any common sense? Well~ No~~~
Oh! And what does it mean "we will switch places whenever I'm fed-up"? Euh...I didn't apply for YOUR position and I am certainly not earning the same salary as you are.
Whatever. I give up. I'm just like a prisoner who does her time and get out.
25.4.13
20 Most Hated Celebrities in Hollywood
Star magazine calculated the 20 Most Hated Celebrities in Hollywood and I am shocked to see that Anne Hathaway and Katherine Heigl is on the top of everyone's sh*t list!!! (even before Lindsay Lohan and Jesse James and Chris Brown?) This list is not very fair nor accurate. I would have KStew on the throne, followed by Lindsay Lohan and Justin Bieber.
The rest is less difficult to understand, but why isn't Robert Pattinson's name in??? And where is Kat Von D? Anyway...........
The rest is less difficult to understand, but why isn't Robert Pattinson's name in??? And where is Kat Von D? Anyway...........
20. Chris Brown
19. Jesse James
18. Taylor Swift
17. Shia LaBeouf
16. Lindsay Lohan
15. Angelina Jolie
14. Jay Leno
13. Ashton Kutcher
12. LeAnn Rimes
10 and 11. Kris Jenner and Kim Kardashian
9. Anne Hathaway
8. Justin Bieber
7. Madonna
6. Matt Lauer
5. Katherine Heigl
4. John Mayer
3. Jennifer Lopez
2. Kristen Stewart
1. Gwyneth Paltrow
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