Black Hole

This black whole is bigger, deeper and blacker than the one they taught you at school. Moreover, it will suck you in indefinitely...you just won't have a chance to get out. Pray for Miracle to happen is the only thing you can do.

The atmosphere/vibe is utterly negative...how do you expect me to be motivated? It is psychologically impossible.

They talk non-stop (or is it more "complain continuously" to make it politically correct) to each other and I'm the one being ignored. I do my effort and try to start a conversation, but only short answers were given back. But the same subject, brought up by someone else, more details were thrown in the air. WTF!?! At some point, I feel as if they don't want to talk to me or we are having a generation gap (option 2 is more likely, isn't it?), so I'm giving up. I do my work, the best I can, and go home.

Also, I am never invited to their secret little meetings (not that I want and insist on going, but it'll be nice to know that I count for something). Basically, I'm just a meaningless bouche trou. I feel left out, if y'know what I mean.

When you try to be at the top of your game, that's when these evil people will do whatever it takes to hold you down and make you feel like rubbish...which I do at this instance.

Beside making you feel like you're worth nothing, either they don't know how to train someone (Seriously, if you are not satisfied with the other person's performance/way of working, shouldn't you not let that person train me? Isn't it obvious that I will do the work the way I was shown?) or purposely withold information in order to dig a hole for you to fall.

Here, again, it demonstrates how it makes impossible to do a good job...the information given was wrong or insufficient.

Siiiiiigh!!!!! It will never get better, unless they are ready to see me as a teamplayer. My word.

Falling Apart

Everything in my life seem to be falling apart.

(I should maybe rename my blog and call it "Shit Corner.")

1- Because of my aunt, I went to a blind date and encountered a not-too-bad looking guy. But he either likes to 'ttyl' people or is not interested (well, neither am I, but at least I have the courtesy to answer my text messages).

2- At work. Pffffff Do I have to mention that it is a complete mess? After the so-call training, I am doing her position for the last month (without getting her salary) and still not sure when I can get back to the position I applied for in the first place.

3- How is it possible not to replace a person who's on vacation? Now, everything falls on me. In other words, I am doing two positions without getting a double pay and/or overtime.

4- Today, it's even a greater joke. That person is still on vacation and another called sick. What's the result? Well~ The one on vacation is obviously not replaced and the one who is sick was replaced by a person who's never been trained. HAHAHAHAH!!! Not only have I spent an hour waiting until someone comes in, but also wasted an hour to show the basics to that newbee.

If you ask me how I like my new job? I would honestly tell you that I'm not too thrilled about it. Nothing is fair. I'm fed up. FED UP.