Forever?

Pfff!!!! There are no such thing as 'forever' in the real world...only in Disney's fairy tales. Numerous people come into your life like a thunderstorm...they come quickly and leave quickly as well.

But, their momentary appearance may strike you harshly so you won't/can't forget them easily. Those people might not stay long enough so you can notice their importance, but one day you'll realize that in some ways they might have influenced you greatly.

I have to thank those anonymous passengers.

Escapade

3 days out of 4 were sunny, so...

I took advantage of it to escape from the real world and hide from my inner problems. What did I do? *chuckles* Sports.

    -Walk in a shopping center
    -Sleep marathon
    -Movie marathon (watched Green Lantern and Kung Fu Panda 2)
    -Hiking at 7 waterfalls (near Quebec) and Montmorency
    -Biking in my district

As a result: sunbath, mosquito bites, firmer legs and decrease of motivation to get back to work.

Mutual Hatred

*the same sad music still playing repeatedly in the background*

Tomorrow is a holiday, thus we are to receive our next week's schedule today. That's not an issue (it is, but not anymore...I sort of gave up) Upon opening the Excel sheet, I cross my fingers, hoping to have something decent. Pfff!!! Never goes the way I wish, but this time it's really horrible.

Here's my schedule to support my story:
    Sunday - off
    Monday - off
    Tuesday - off
    Wednesday - 1600-0000
    Thursday - 1400-2200
    Friday - 1630-2130
    Saturday - 1600-0000

I took the time to carefully look at my schedule and find it extremely peculiar to only have to work 4 days (a total of 27.5 hours) when I clearly recall someone saying that we're garanteed to have at least 30 hours/week. I wasn't sure if it has something to do with July 1st's holiday or not. Having this question mark in my mind...I decided to write a formal email to the person who's responsible for my confusion. But, at the moment I started to type, my coach passed by, so I asked him the question out of "curiosity." How am I suppose to know that a person who had worked here for years wouldn't know the answer???

Very kind of this person, he immediately went to the schedule-lady's desk for a clarification. She didn't answer the question, but rather tell him to tell me to ask her the question myself. Alright. I unglued my posterior from my chair and walked to her desk. Here's how the conversation went...

+I'm going to use the letter B to represent that woman...to protect her identity and at the same time it may stand for B****+    Yah! Seriously. That's how frustrated I am.

    N: Hi!
    B: Yes. What's the problem?
    N: I know that we're suppose to get at least 30hours/week and I have less next week, so I just wondered if it has something to do with the holiday, if it has an influence.
    B: Where's the error?
    N: Ugh! I don't know.
    B: Where do you see an error?
    N: I don't know. I calculated my hours and it gives 27.5 and not 30, maybe I miscalculated?
    B: No. You work on July 1st. When you work on a holiday, no matter how many hours you work...it's 7.5 + overtime. So, you do 4x 7.5 it gives 30.
    N: Oh! I didn't know. No one ever told me that. Guess I just missed this information.
    B: Yah! And if you have questions you should come to me directly...I'm the leader.
    N: Uhm! Yes. I saw him passed by so I thought he would know...
    B: No. I'm the boss. If you need something, I'm the one who can give you explanations.

Scheize!!! It is officially the beginning of my doom days. She hates me = will start giving me awful schedules, which is already the case. Siiigh!!!

Note: She once said that our destiny is within her hands. *Goosebumps*

Too Much

This music track represents my latest mood perfectly. Can you feel it? No? Then, try to close your eyes and sense it with your heart. It's sad to the point that no word can be used to describe it.

Source: Cello solo from 陳冠蒲's 太多 (as heard in 倩女幽魂)

救救小魚!!!

What am I doing still sitting on this not-comfortable chair...which clearly doesn't belong to me??? This is not my place. I am not suppose to be here. I have no reason to be here.

How do I know that for sure? *chuckles* Believe me, you'll know it too if you were living under my skin. Seriously. I know because I'm not happy AT ALL...it is definitely not right if I literally refuse to get out of my bed to go to work. I need to do something...*searching for the word*...which I'm passionate about. I need that "flame" to keep me going. I'm not a robot in any ways...can't function well under a pile of strict rules...someone pulling out a ruler ready to spank you whenever you do a human mistake. I need to find something more creative and colorful (eventhough I only like black, white and red) to paint my life.

Lesson learnt: Prestige (the name of where you work) is nothing more important than happiness.

Can't even remember for how long I haven't put a sincere smile on my face.

Pleaz! Revive me! Tell me what I should do and where I should go! Any brilliant suggestions?

CMT Awards 2011

Can't believe I forgot to blog this *one big tsk to my shame* How could I? HOW.COULD.I?

Shania Twain, 5-time Grammy Award winner, and Taylor Swift kicked off the 2011 CMT Music Awards with a parody of 'Thelma & Louise' (better than the original I'm afraid to say). It is a highlarious clip featuring Donald Trump, Kid Rock, Chord Overstreet and Ron White. Shania and Taylor did get to show off their badass-badgirl side. Like Donald said in the clip: "If I could harness the power of these two women, I could control the world...They're unbelievable." Check this out...you'll be amazed.

The second part: OMFG! How is that possible? Why does this have to happen to her? Shania literally tripped on her way to the stage. How embarrassing? BUT, she did handle it gracefully and made a joke out of it. That's someone with class. *applaud* Now, she's thinking of maybe selling those cursed shoes by auction or keep them as a souvenir. *smirk* I'm very curious to know from which designer are her shoes.

Be True To Yourself

...because no one else would. No one knows you more than you know yourself; and no one loves you more than you love yourself, thus no one will always tell you the whole truth.

If someone constantly gives you compliments or critics, maybe you're lucky and found a true friend, but most people have a reason in the back of their head for doing so. Either they want to praise you (earn your trust and take advantage of it), trash you (attack your self-estime and step on you to get to a higher status) or hide something from you (don't tell you everything and hope that you'll make a foul of yourself in front of people).

When people say: Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer. Not quite a bad idea. You don't know who might stab you and when...always be on guard and be wary of people around you.

Note: As you can see, I'm starting to lose confidence in people. It is as if we're not living in the same area nor consumming the same resources...I'm often misunderstood or not appreciated or underestimated. Why don't people focus on your strength instead of enlarging your weakness? To my defense, I have to say that I'm competent and the one person (if there's really one out there) who has an eye on that will be a wealthy one.

Truth has no expiry date!!! It is never too late to get a grip on that...don't lie to yourself, because other people are already doing it to you. In other words, do yourself a favor and fully live the only life you have to live.

Who Are We???

Mankind is a very special living-specie on this earth...our physical anatomy and neurons activities are significantly different from others (whom we share our resources with).

-We have countless needs.

-We create our own problems.

-We force ourselves to find solutions to be able to survive.

-We have thoughts.

-We have feelings.

-...etc.

Sometimes, I do wonder why we can't be as simple as other breathing creatures? I've always wanted a simple life with no pressure and nothing to worry about.

-Swim peacefully like a fish. (although I don't like swimming, but only the peaceful part)
-Play endlessly like a dog. (they are better treated than human beings)
-Sleep endlessly like a pig. (has to be in my comfy-bed and not a mud-bath)
-...etc.

What Is Mr. Right's First Name?

Men of our days (generally speaking) are a total deception...they represent disappointment. I'm starting to think that I'll be better off leaving on my own and spare myself by eliminating this potential headache from my life.

To continue my own tradition, I ought to provide you with fact-supportive examples. (You may have heard them from my previous rants. So, bare with me and don't be too disappointed.)

Gentlemen from previous decades have the practice to pull the chair for the ladies and poliltely invite them to sit. In our days, specifically in public transportations, they PRE.TEEEND~ to sleep or read their book instead of offering their seat (with the sticker indicating that it's reserved for pregnant, handicap and old people) to the ones who clearly need to sit. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with someone like that???

Depending when, but usually when I open the door, it is for myself or my friends to go through...other time's when I open it for old ladies. But, believe it or not, there are youngsters who would take advantage of my effort to slip through the door instead of holding it for a lovely lady, like me. *tsk tsk tsk* What a never-seen-before asswhole. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with someone like that???

Recently, I saw a woman, showing great difficulties on her face, carrying a baby-troller up the stairs...followed by her "man" with his hands comfortably placed behind his back. You would think that physically demanding tasks are usually done by the man? You are totally wrong. That man had zero intensions on helping the poor woman...well, maybe he has no balls~ Who knows?!? Right? Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with someone like that???

This is just to name a few to not burst other people's "wonderful" bubble and disturb those ladies who are still day-dreaming for a Leopold (someone who are raised with proper manners like Leopold, Hugh Jackman's character in Kate & Leopold.)

Mmm-Hmmmmm *nod slowly* The only way to have the puuurfect one...is to create/program it yourself. The first name of my Mr. Right is Robot...Mr. Robot Right.

Lecture Myself Out-Loud

Note: This may not concern you, it is just me lecturing myself and thinking publicly.

Who am I to criticize and judge other people?

I should stop that and find something more interesting to say. If not, well...y'know...I'll keep my mouth shut. I will try and do my best.

Anyway, it's not like if it hurts me to see weird people and comment on their weird behaviour. What does it matter, right? It is none of my business. If it bothers that much, I can simply deviate my sight elsewhere. I've acting like a bitch and critisize others, only because it's my way to describe what I see and my way to start a conversation.

Turn your back and let it go already!!! Hakuna Matata!!!

Personality Flaws

It is hard to be compatible with everyone (close to impossible) due to culture and background (nature and nurture) differences. That is why I don't force myself to like everyone and the same the other way around. Still, I just prefer/more comforting to know that no one out there is hating my face. *in a firm tone* I like to be liked. I like to have the spotlight aiming on me.

    Hence, I don't like people stealing my thunder.
    People who are full of themselves.
    People who are arrogant.
    People who think they are God.
    People who think the world turns around them.
    People who think the world's better only because they're breathing its O2.
    People who are selfish.
    People who don't respect the importance of time.
    People who........there are an infinity which I can't enumerate them all in one post.

I'm not only capable of criticizing others. I genuinely know what people may hate me for. Seriously. I joke not. I do a lot of self evaluation. Trust me.

    Sometimes I can get a little bossy. I like it when people do as I say.
    I don't know how to camouflage my inner feelings...they all show on my face if something's wrong.
    I think too much instead of getting into action.
    I don't like to repeat myself more than twice...it'll switch on my nervous tempers.

Alright. Now it's time to point fingers and tell me what you think of me (if there are things you'd like me to change/improve). I allow it for this once, without getting mad. So, it's time to be honest. *wink*

How To Say No

...and when?

I'm not a person who knows how to say no/reject to start with. If the demand is reasonable, my answer will be "yes" at all time. Especially if it's a favor asked by someone I care a lot, I wouldn't want to deceive him/her...unless I don't have time to render what I was asked for.

Some suggest to say “I’m sorry. I can't do this right now” with a sympathetic and polite, but firm (not defensive or overly apologetic) tone. And, if the other person gives you pressure as to why, you may answer with "I really don't have time to, but if I can free my schedule, I'll let you know" and immediately change the subject. BUT, if that person keeps insisting and being a total jerk, excuse yourself and walk away. (remember that you don’t owe nothing to no one)

In case if you are uncomfortable or unable of being so firm (like myself), or are dealing with pushy people, it is okay to say, “Let me think about it and get back to you.” (remember to be matter-of-fact and not too promising and give people false hope which will lead to great disappointment)

If you want to accept the request, but not entirely, it is again okay to say “I can do this, but…” and make clear of your possible commitment. This way you can be involved on your own terms.

PS. I'm just good at typing it. (to say is easy, to do is a completely different story) Do not ask me to apply those technics when I'm in a situation which requires me to. I'll probably be sweating in my pants and can't find my own words. It is hard to think and make your ideas clear when you're facing a problem.

PPS. If you have any other interesting technics/tactics...feel free to contact me.

Where Did It Went Wrong?

I don't feel particularly busy these days, but just don't seem to have time for anything.

    Don't have time to watch my series (good thing TVB is airing series with shitty casting)
    Don't have time to update my blog (terribly sorry towards my small-number of readers)

Mmmm!!! Euh!!! That's...it? Okay~ Guess I'm over-reacting and complaining for nothing, once again.

Well...well...I think I just found the glitch. *lightbulb* Weather is getting nicer (the girl's-go-out-half-naked season has arrived), that's why I do go out more often with my friends and do more outdoor activities. At the end of the day, it's a good thing. I'm less of a couch worm. (Oh! Speaking of worm. Last night I went to an X japanese restaurant on Crescent street with some friends and found a worn in those japanese "beans." Moreover, the food's not extraordinary as my aunt describes it and insists we should go try it out. It was quite ordinary to the Kanda-level. At least I had plenty of fun talking to my gals.)

Afterall, the question's answered and nothing's wrong. I'm such a DramaQueen (in every sense of the word).

Promise to myself: This summer, I'll be more outdoor biking and roller blading and ball kicking or doing my new favorite sport...bowling. I can save my tv shows for rainy days and winter time.