Last Post - Farewell

This is my last post on this blog as I've decided to move on with my life/enjoy life instead of sitting behing a screen and bitch about it.

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So...take care!!!

For The Better

The year of 2011 was definitely a low in my life. The year of 2013, so far, was some sort of redemption. I hope the year of 2014 and so on will only peak with good news.

Up until now, I managed to find myself a spot in the hospital...where I belong at the moment (I would like to work in the surgery or morgue department to fulfill my all-time desire to become a medical examiner/medical investigator). For sure, not everything's perfect (especially the co-worker of mine who doesn't seem to have a mute or power-off button), but I can certainly deal with it. At least in this department I get acknowledged...my boss see the effort I give and the work I do.

In the upcoming years, I would also like to get some improvement in my clothing style. After being brainwashed by Dr Hunt, I think I start to fancy highheels...more ankle boots in my case.

To finish this post, I would like to add that I will try to be more outgoing. Yes. That's definitely one of my 2014 resolutions. [How long can I keep this? Gawd knows.]

2013 Xmas Wishlist

This year's Xmas wishlist is short and simple...just a little more expensive than usual. I hope I've been good enough for Santa to make my wish come true.

Tiffany & Co.
    - Notes ring, wide - 275$
    - Paloma Picasso Hammered ring - 165$
    - Elsa Peretti Wave Five-row ring - 470$
    - Somerset ring, wide - 330$
    - Paloma Picasso Olive Leaf ring - 275$

Dr. Martens
    - Delaney - 85$
    - 2976 - 120$
    - 1461-C2B - 120$
    - Harlen - 140$
    - 1461 womens - 110$

RayBan
    - Aviator blue flash lenses - 200$
    - Aviator orange flash lenses - 200$

UGG
Butte - 255$

Apple
Ipad mini or Ipad air - 400$

Movado
Bold - 500$

A B C's whishlist: An aquarium filter.

喜事

Despite the boring routine life I'm breathing through 365 days a year...it is always good to have something positive around the corner, which is worth the wait.

MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED NEXT YEAR!!!

PS: Although, I am very jealous and feel utterly lonely, I am still extremely happy for her. She's finally building her own family with the man she loves. Awwwww!!! So sweet~

Anyway. This announcement is also bringing a little excitement into my life, because I have to help planning the day. Y'know~ The feel of imporatance and needed is GRRRREAT. Seriously, can't wait till that day.

Note: I won't be the lead of that night, but I'll certainly nail the supporting role. Sigh!!! *wondering when I'll be able to get the lead role...some times before I die, I hope*

We Are Not The Same

Lately, I've been attending quite a few meetings and conferences, which after so, I came to a realization...

Eventhough all these people are in the same room "looking/pretending" like they share the same interest, but they actually don't. You want to know what I saw today? People arriving late, people going straight to the food table, people talking among themselves, people texting, people constantly looking at the time, and people coming in and out the room.

WTH?!? The topic was so interesting that I was trying to concentrate, but NO~ these people were making so much noise, it was impossible to follow. Anyway, why show up if you are not there to listen? Okay. You may need to be there to get credits, well~ show some respect to the person standing in the fron!!!

The point is...sit in the front if you really want to hear and understand something.

HK & Euro Alliance

Looks like there is a weddingboom in the world. Everyone around me is getting married and having babies. What am I doing still single? Neh! Whatever, I'm happy that way (am I really or just trying to convince myself?), so... Let's move on.

An interesting observation of mine: there are more and more Asian-Caucasian reunion. Why? My theory is that (generally speaking) they are better looking, have better taste and are sweeter. *period*

Gigi Leung & Sergio (Spaniard) 4 million wedding

Karen Mok & Johannes (German)

Kathy Chow & Julien (French) 20 million wedding

Michelle Yeoh and Jean Todt (French)

Please

The word "please" is very important and highly dangerous...it all depends if you know how to use it correctly and wisely.

I am definitely the kind of person who knows how to use it correctly, but certainly not wisely.

Let me explain. As a well educated/polite person, I surely know when to say please and thank you, not a problem. But, there are others who will abuse the magic of the word, use it as an all access pass...just say the word and her job is magically done, because I end up doing it.

Thus, she would have time to talk to people or on private calls for hours; walk around to change ideas, and her work will still be perfectly done on time.

At the meantime, I am glued to my chair to work my arse off.

So, each time she calls my name and say the word, I simply want to put all the energy I have into my right hand and slap her real hard so her teeth would break out of her jaw, then maybe~ she wouldn't be able to speak anymore?!?

PS. Don't ask me!!! How can I possibly know if you are the one who is getting a higher salary and been sitting in this office longer than me, don't know?

Family Drama

No matter how large and how wealthy your family is, when a death occurs, people will automatically switch their money/heritage radar on.

The whole story/realisation started when my grand-mother passed away about a month ago.

When she was still around, people don't show any interest in making her happy, even if it is only to come by whenever they go out. Now that she's gone, miraculously, people get extremely dedicated to the point of wanting to manage everything. And by everything, I mean, mostly financial aspects. Moreover, I don't believe in people who cry their eyes out and wasting Kleenexes. What is the point to cry now that she's not here? Wouldn't it be more logical to have done more while she was still able to enjoy???

Pffffff!!!! Anyway, in my opinion. they all should get an Oscar. Seriously! I would personally nominate them. *Disgusted*

Babies Better Than "Adult Babies"

Life is too short for you to endure poop or any sorts of disgusting substances thrown at you by others. Do not put yourself in a situation where you feel like a piece of nothing. You are not inferior to anyone and nor do you deserve to be treated like a violently-chewed-left-over chicken leg. If you're not happy with one tiny little thing...DO SOMETHING and FAST.

My new point-of-view: workplace environment and colleagues fill the greatest part of your life. It is a place where you spend more time than any other places, including your house; and they are people whom you see more often than any other people, including your family.

Let me tell you that it is terribly difficult, if not impossible, to work with people who think they're the best, but actually do nothing; people of no help whenever you ask them something; people who are negative and complain all day; people who don't recognize your work; and people with no work ethics.

If your nose is stuck on your cellphone screen 24/7, I honestly cannot believe you haven't seen my email. My interpretation for this, either you don't want to deal with it, don't know how to solve it, want to let me rot, or all of the above.

I also can't accept the fact that the person who gets the big buck tries to run away (literally running away like a lost chicken afraid to get the head chopped off) or tell me she'll get back to me in an hour, but never do. What happened to being a responsable person and do your effing job? Isn't this the reason why you get paid?

Anyway. I've made up my mind...I want happiness and no one is allowed to tell me I don't deserve it.

Unfortunately, I have to say byebye to my good fellows. Y'know, it's so frustrating to leave a wonderful place because of one or two cockroaches!!! Why can't we just throw them out (I'd like to kill, but I'm not ready to spend the rest of my life in jail yet) and make all human beings happy???

No Babies Allowed In My Life

Once again, I started in a new department (obstetric/gynecology 2 weeks ago) in order to try something new and hoping to finally find MY place. The result of this trial is rather deceiving.

Y'know, when you hope to find a better place, but that other place is a bigger mess and much more unorganized? Well~ I feel like fallen into a trap, so now I'm fighting with all my energy trying to climb back up. BUT...*sigh* this place might not be made for me...

Having to meet people for an anti-social person is hard.
Having to work with a lazy-nonstop-talking person is hard.
Having to modify my work two hundred millions times per day is hard.
Having no orientation or information in bits and pieces is hard.
Having to speak baby language is hard.

I'm starting to think that I should reconsider and do what I like (the OR) instead of putting too great of an attention on whom I'm working with. At the end of the day, I don't have to be friends with those people, right?

Lets go back to 'comfort zone!'